Sometimes I feel like I'd give anything to be stupid.

Entering a world with pre-defined structure gives us a path. A chute. And I've slowly, reluctantly come to believe that with the expulsion, the electric expense of some vaguely-defined region within your head you can alter them. Not re-directed determinism, since there's no way to know how these confining hallways will crash into others as they ( Read more... )

I muss my hair one way and then another. Stare into the mirror - second to last of the row occupied by my friends and family - and I repeat. Washing out what I tried before. Wipe the sweat away and start again. Scream and start again. In one direction and then to the opposite. Mop my forehead and start again. Look straight into the mirror again. ( Read more... )

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I am no one's family.

Separated by biology or theology or straight-up casting-off, I am somewhere else.
I left so soon as to be quasi-orphaned and came too late to be adopted.
I am the suffered additionally-there.
I am the also-pictured.

I am the half obituary.

Spinning up
to the building, brooding, bailing out of
feelings chopped
left validated but veritably vanishing.

Hold tight
to rising, racing, forced-receding to that which is
cast right
in arrhythmic animosity ascending to the

Three words
are all I ever need to speak to
establish discord
and show the reason I never say them all at once.

You're so far apart. The most intense heat in fathomable existence bleeding into the coldest conceptual possibility ( Read more... )

Oh you and your venom your sweet sweet fucking poison where there's no slight
slip
slow relegation of mental countenance of the overwhelming parsing
pursuit
parching of one's instance that your visage scars so naturally
nesting
necessarily where it currently resides
results
rests.

Sixty thousand miles traversed by systolic pressure ( Read more... )

My light sister ( Read more... )