He came to my house too, you know. Asking all sorts of questions. He was so close. So close to uncovering the truth. He knew I knew something. He's not stupid. I tried to get him to leave it alone, but he wouldn't. He would have found out everything, and then where would you be? More secrets spilt than just this. I had to tell him enough to make him back off. He would have kept looking for Misha's killer otherwise, and you know what he would have found. I did the only thing I could.
At least you're not yelling at me, so I can actually explain it to you. If you don't think it's acceptable, I understand. That's your right. I'm sorry. I never wanted to make life harder for Yvonne, or any of you.
I loved Misha. I never meant any disrespect to her, either.
So he knew you knew something, was there any way in hell he was going to guess what? Or are you just trying to cover your arse. Cos seriously, aint' no way he could guess what was really going on, not unless you'd been letting things slip before this too.
You know he never woulda found Cinders. not him, and not where she is. No way no how.
And you could've lied, could've protected them. Anything stopping you doing that? Bet you've lied to protect people before.
And you coulda warned us he knew. You didn't even tell Pierre. Why not? If he was getting that close, if he had backed you that far into the corner, why didn't you tell anyone?
So don't you say you did the only thing you could, like its an excuse, like it justifies anything. Cos Pierre says you're still DEFENDING what you did, becos though thought he deserved to know cos they were FRIENDS. So what WAS it, Renee? Were you trying to protect people or were you just giving him what he wanted, cos I'm getting two fucking different stories here.
I didn't think he'd do anything. There was no reason to say anything, I thought he'd just leave it alone! He promised.
Lucas, I wanted to protect everyone. I'm sorry, but that did include Jocelin, because he was my friend too. Now he's just fucking abandoned me. When the going gets tough, Jocelin fucks off, apparently.
I didn't give him what he wanted. I didn't do right by anyone, okay. I get it. I'm not going to make excuses to you, and there's not much else I can do. I was stupid. I wasn't prepared. I probably let him hold more power over me than I should have. If I could take it back I would, but I still don't know what the fuck I would have done instead. I just wanted him to leave it alone.
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He came to my house too, you know. Asking all sorts of questions. He was so close. So close to uncovering the truth. He knew I knew something. He's not stupid. I tried to get him to leave it alone, but he wouldn't. He would have found out everything, and then where would you be? More secrets spilt than just this. I had to tell him enough to make him back off. He would have kept looking for Misha's killer otherwise, and you know what he would have found. I did the only thing I could.
At least you're not yelling at me, so I can actually explain it to you. If you don't think it's acceptable, I understand. That's your right. I'm sorry. I never wanted to make life harder for Yvonne, or any of you.
I loved Misha. I never meant any disrespect to her, either.
I'll try to make sure Jocelin leaves you alone.
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You know he never woulda found Cinders. not him, and not where she is. No way no how.
And you could've lied, could've protected them. Anything stopping you doing that? Bet you've lied to protect people before.
And you coulda warned us he knew. You didn't even tell Pierre. Why not? If he was getting that close, if he had backed you that far into the corner, why didn't you tell anyone?
So don't you say you did the only thing you could, like its an excuse, like it justifies anything. Cos Pierre says you're still DEFENDING what you did, becos though thought he deserved to know cos they were FRIENDS. So what WAS it, Renee? Were you trying to protect people or were you just giving him what he wanted, cos I'm getting two fucking different stories here.
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Lucas, I wanted to protect everyone. I'm sorry, but that did include Jocelin, because he was my friend too. Now he's just fucking abandoned me. When the going gets tough, Jocelin fucks off, apparently.
I didn't give him what he wanted. I didn't do right by anyone, okay. I get it. I'm not going to make excuses to you, and there's not much else I can do. I was stupid. I wasn't prepared. I probably let him hold more power over me than I should have. If I could take it back I would, but I still don't know what the fuck I would have done instead. I just wanted him to leave it alone.
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