oh dear dear dear mister ferrari.
you will be missed.

you're just not it for me. i'm not perfect and you're not perfect and there's nothing left to salvage. at one time in my short life i thought that although the world was mostly bad, there had to be some good in it; and now i see that all that is good in the world wasn't created by humans. our nature is to break things, not build them. i will not ( Read more... )

i am very nervous about college.
i'm super excited don't get me wrong.
but what a change it will be.
jeeeez.

seriously this time:

how do i lose people?
and why am i the only one it bothers?

dear diary,
i hate life. lykeeee everything is just so bad. every1 iz so mean and lyke all i ever do is get drunk with my sistahs, what'z that all about? nd my ex boi friend lyke is totally acting lyke he broke up wit me! OMGZ!itz so good that i have such good friendz. or lyke id move ta london today!!!!
hooooollllllllaaaaaa!

high school has easily been the worst four years of my life.
i hate all of this.

i am horribly confused
but also incredibly happy
so i just don't think being confused matters.

i thought i was independent, somewhat, before all of this, but now i realize how it really is.
total independence is loneliness.
being able to think for yourself, completely, is rejection.
and the most important of all, my thoughts and feelings are public domain.

paula abdul is a drunkard.
american idol sucks.
it's not entirely her fault, but mostly.

the past few months have been a sad state of affairs ( Read more... )