Comments | dante_mon_amour: Tonight, the moon was as bright as the sun

dante_mon_amour

Tonight, the moon was as bright as the sun

Aug 01, 2004 02:19

I really hate sleeping. Ever since I have developed this 'panic attack disorder', I have not been able to enjoy sleeping as I used to. I now force myself to stay awake as late as I can due to irrational fears conjured up by my psyche. Sometimes, if I am unlucky enough to not fall asleep instantly, I creat this scenario in my head that if I do fall ( Read more... )

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redmouse27 August 1 2004, 03:11:19 UTC

Those are some cute-ass-cute pictures ( ... )

dante_mon_amour August 1 2004, 03:22:11 UTC

I will try that honestly. WHY do panic attacks occur, they are the worst!! I seriously want to die because of them...but first I shall try this anchor thing. sounds fun to say the least

redmouse27 August 1 2004, 03:28:08 UTC

Haha, it is fun.

As for the attacks- well, mine came about because Hashimoto's disease (not enough thyroid hormone) got overtreated, so I had too much, then my adrenal glands went into overdrive and wore out. Then they tried to treat me with benzodiazephines and Celexa (like Prozac), which gave me serotonin syndrome, and psychologists who told me that I should take MORE of what fucked me up so badly.

So I threw everything in the trash and I quit school (I was at UCSC) and moved back with my parents. I spent six months in like, cloistered spiritual retreat, and when I came out I had realized: panic attacks happen to me when I give up control over myself to someone else or something else. Or when I feel like I might lose something that I couldn't do without.

So when they happen, ask yourself: where did I give up control? And what am I so worried about losing that I can't chill out?

One more thing: if you haven't already, get a good physical to rule out any health issues.

dante_mon_amour August 1 2004, 03:32:27 UTC

oh wow thats interesting......do you ever feel like youre going to die due to the attacks

oh i found you on the UCI board.......I have only had these stupid attacks for a few months and it was due to what you said above.....Why cant they just go away on their own..sigh

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__48crash August 2 2004, 00:11:16 UTC

yaaay vinyl

meltingpanda July 30 2005, 08:29:00 UTC

Hey, it's the picture I was looking for! =]

dante_mon_amour July 31 2005, 08:09:29 UTC

I forgot I had it on here. Well I am glad you found it.