exciiiiited..

you can miss things in the past
but is it safe to say
sometimes you miss those people too.

life is so confusing now
or has it always been?
knowing nothing of what i want
i just drift and hope for the best.
i hope that in some strange way
it will all come together.

but now i spend my time and i spend money uselessly
filling up these days.

everything is so fun now ( Read more... )

Besides the surgery
Stuff is looking up!

Excited for fall and winter!
Excited! Excited! Excited!

i don't understand
my eyes swell up and my nose runs

oh how i wish so much that i didn't give a fuck like you.
but no matter how hard i try
nothing works.

everything i do is to occupy my time ( Read more... )

and for a day i was as happy as i could have been.
but it was gone almost as fast as it had arrived.
too fast to understand what exactly had happened,
everything was left in worse shape than ever before.

oh i pray for a quick recovery
or just something quick.

when i eventually graduate i realized i do want to go away somewhere for a while.... or for a long time. i love it here but the places i've seen have inspired me to see more of what i haven't. i have been lots of places though... i can't jump the gun yet, still have to graduate at some point. i did run into this lady again that always comes into ( Read more... )

this house is so quite
every sense is heightened

every sense is heightened to my dismay
and i long for some place else
where things were
one place in time

il try to think of other things
but this house is so quite
and these thoughts are all i have.