i realised . . .  i cant explain many things . . many things i wish i could. i can never find the words. or even if by chance i do think of what i want to say i cant get it out.

i     so ( Read more... )

nothing works out
unless its in your favor.
and today they are favoring me.

i dont know why
nor do i ask.
i just know.

i have tests to take
classes to go to
and races to run.

all of which i enjoy...

because i am content
and happy
with just about everything in life...

with everyone in life...
thats what i care about,
what i want to care about.
because the people ( Read more... )

i feel i have somewhat of a mental block right now. my brain is farting. well....lets see..

these two weeks have been awsome. the anticipation of going up to Colby and then just being there. i actually ended up staying longer than planned....sry chris' roommates. haha. on doghead we should have stuck with parrots bay but im a dumbass and got ( Read more... )

i havent had coffee in a while and i just got one. i dont even want it.

blaaah.

i just feel blaaah and i cant get out of it.

fucking exctiting. thats what this break is going to be. i live at school....i love it. but i definatly need some home time. some good times. just hangin out with some friends i havent seen in a while and badly want to see. caaant fuckin wait!! and its going to get warm out!!! SHORTS! oh man i love shorts...sandals... all that shit. sunroof open ( Read more... )

all these days seem wasted with out you.

empty days held together by appointments on paper.

these chances to hold each other cancelled.

tears and aches at my heart.

i may have things to do

none of which involve you

but its not by choice

because if i did

there is no question

i would choose you,

i would choose you, by me, with everything i

"hold on to me.....
the passing stars light the way
the futures here today
its you and me tonight
leave it all behind..."

DAY today. sunny and forty five bitches....got a nice bagel in for breaaaak-fast and showed up to my first class only to find everyone working on a test. oppps. haha...i did really well anyways though. oh...and todays my first day of practice!! ahhh...i better not suck.

went up to Colby last weekend to see chrissss and had nothing less than a ( Read more... )