theres a girl in the new America's Top Model that is 5'11.5 and 115 lbs. Shes trying and cannot gain weight. I would kill to be like that.

So I'm beginning to think there is something inheriently flawed about me that makes me drive people away. I don't really feel like explaining why I feel this way, its enough to say that I do ( Read more... )

Dont you love having some friends that are all "You look fine the way you are", these of course are the friends that know nothing of the ED and are generally not tiny themselves, and then you have the friends that are all "You could stand to loose alot of weight." for me these are the friends that know about the ED and say that they're against it ( Read more... )

I'm getting sick of people not taking me seriously. I know I don't look like I have an eating disorder, but fucking hell, you can be anorexic at any weight. Apparently me hating myself and wanting to kill myself slowly, one skipped/purged meal at a time isn't anyhting to be worried or even cared about. I'm sick of peopel telling me the only reason ( Read more... )

So I got some of the best "support" from a friend. She decided, after telling me how horrible I am for having an ed and how much better she is then me because she "dosen't" have one but oh she hasn't eaten all day, to tell me that the reason I'm more so bulimic is because I dont have the will power to be anorexic. Well that right there has given me ( Read more... )

wow... isnt it always nice how you're talking to friends and they're completly ignoring you and not paying any attention at all but instead playing games? Ya I thought so too...

I know some girls hate their periods. I personally am becoming very fond of mine (when it actually decides to show its head) becuase it tends to make me not want to eat anything. AND it makes me not able to eat any of the things that usually sway me. Such as meat. I cannot stand the sight/smell/taste/texture of meat when I'm on my rag. Which is ( Read more... )

I havent posted in a while.
I decided to write a poem for my writing class. Let me know what you guys think.

( Porcelain Angel )

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Arg. I HATE the holidays! So I had decided that I would give myself 3 days off (X-mas eve, X-mas and boxing day) to eat "normally" and not feel guilty about this. X-mas eve went alright, although I ate next to nothing because I was nervous about my solos in church that night. So that was a plus. X-mas morning went alright too, I actually had some ( Read more... )