Good god!
I have a love/hate relationship with my job. It's so crazy that I either love the kids and hate the faculty or I hate the kids and love the faculty. Sometimes the parents get thrown into the mix. I feel myself second-guessing every word that I have uttered during the day. My new anxiety is that people know I'm not planning on being there next year, and I am being looked upon as someone that doesn't give a shit. I need to do some quick side stepping, and let the admins know I'm staying. I need a good recommendation just in case I do decide to leave. Nothing is final yet. Except that the guy I team teach with told me yesterday that he won't be back next year. All this bullshit is nuts to being worrying about in November.