can anyone say bi-polar ?

not sure what to do now. my last entry was all about how much i love you and thats true. its just that when i here things like i did today, i cant help but get mad at you. i want to hate you so bad. its just not as simple as that.

wait.. what was that? was it me ( Read more... )

I think of you every day. Today I was in my basement and all i could think about was that night when you came over and we hung out all night. I thought of how so much could have happened but it didn't and how lucky i was to have you. I heard a noise and it reminded me of how when we were down there, we kept thinking someone was comming home. Then i ( Read more... )

yeah so the awkwardness is still there.. i'm not really liking it. i dont know why it is there. mayb its because i still dont know why its over in the first place. idk.. ill never know i guess. i mean even when we talk online i can feel this awkwardness.. then when i talk to other guys i just feel awful. like today i was talking to tyshawn and i ( Read more... )

hmm i just got home from the airport. on each flight.. there was a screaming baby. how fun. i love not being able to sleep because of that. i mean there were some good things that happened this weekend but ehh pretty boring most of the time... never got hooked up with some stuff but thats okay i guess... 4 days.. ahhh.. keith knows what im talking ( Read more... )

hmmm lets see.. so the school day was nothing special. kinda awkward. mrs swanson must have been so pissed off at me. yeah plus the whole thing with max. ohh yeah tyshawn is on my bus at my dads house, i found that one out, just today. we talked.. fun stuff, huhh?? yeah so what else. the school day didnt really matter much. i'm doing much better ( Read more... )

ive been feeling really sad latley but you know what, im not gonna let those feelings bother me. im gonna try to be a happy person. im not just going to sit there in misery thinking about what we had. if im lucky, we will get that back, if im not, then i wont. i'm still gonna miss it but, theres nothing i can do,is there ( Read more... )

i fucking hate my life... like the only reason why im still here right now is because of my friends.. the girls.. hommies.. if it wasnt for you, i prolly would b gone. like why else would i need to keep living.

guys, no matter how much you think your perfect for them, somehow they ( Read more... )

okk yeah. umm i had to do the whole science fair project, then my health essay, plus kennel mannagement report. uhhh that was so gay. i missed ccd for that. i kinda want to go to ccd because of my hot lovvers and all that. i missed that. damn. well i did listen to some spongebob while i was working so im a goofy goober yeah. <3333

yup so i scanned ( Read more... )