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Ever feel like an open wrist bleeding out on the floor? Just a day where you feel like you don't care about anything. All energy has left you now with just a tinge of sadness.

Online is my only social life these days. Everyone is so busy or cut from my life. I have always felt kinda left behind. Nothing much left of me that appeals to anybody. I'm so disconnected from this world that I have nothing to offer but strangeness and a hollow. Making new friends seems a mysterious and terrifying thing. I just get older and more ( Read more... )

I had a complimentary $5 on keen and decided to take a quick reading. I do feel a little lost. . . complacent but lost. I was told to choose a scientific career path, and that my relationship has a half life of a year tops. Now I really feel lost. "Comfort is a mystery, crawling out of my own skin". Eclipse of the moon, fish stuck in gelatin but ( Read more... )

So I'm trying to sell some excess toys on craigslist and it occurs to me that people don't know how to haggle anymore. They need their decisions made for them now. Gods I'm starting to feel old.

Just fucking around with this thing.

Anybody still use this thing?

Check me out. Ange's getting desperate for money in the Memphis Tenn. help me pay my bills and clean your house or something. :)http://memphis.backpage.com/gyrobase/classifieds/ViewAd?oid=oid%3A155525&uid=

I hate how long it takes to get hired anymore. Usually can expect to wait around for a whole goddamn month while all those penny loafering jackasses just sit around on their candy asses all week, they might use your application for a coaster before they slip a sip of gin from their bottom drawer and laugh over your pathetic attempts to get a job. ( Read more... )

Right now the attitude I assume is that of retreat from stress to gather inner strength in this time of tranquility in the midst of my great struggle. My underlying thoughts and feelings are very trying right now as I am constantly seeking to master myself and balance the opposing forces inside me. But right now my attitude is evolving and will ( Read more... )