I feel like shit tonight. I dont quite know why, but everything is so blank to me. I'm barely even talking to Ashley... I havnt left my room in hours, and Ive been in and out of bed staring at the ceiling wondering why Im staring at the damn ceiling. I miss Ashley like a mofo and cannot stand to see how miserable she is in Mass. I want to be able ( Read more... )

Nothing to update really. Interesting night the other night though. Lea heard I was talking shit about her and decided to call me, yell at me and hang up in my face. Calls back 5 minutes later with, "listen you fat ugly fuck, you need to get a life" and hangs up in my face. It could just be me, but maybe the person who calls up someone to bitch ( Read more... )

HAPPY ONE MONTH ASHLEY! <3
I love you!

Well... Ashley went back to Mass today. I got to see her before she left which was great... but since she left, I've been pretty down. I realized today that everytime she goes back, It'll hurt more and more, but seeing her is well worth it because she makes me 1,000 times happier than I feel sad when she leaves. Did that make sence? Anyway, ( Read more... )

Wow... this has to be the stupidest but most amusing thing I have seen all week. I got it from Stan's profile... its called the Octodog, oh shiz! And I soo want one... no joke. I kinda wanna go back to school Monday. I wanna see the lunch crew and some other people. I just don't want to do the work. Anyway's, I gots some updating to do...

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New Years Eve: I was all excited that I would be able to spend New Years Eve with my baby... but one bad thing after another and it ended up that her mom couldn't pick her up so she couldn't come. We were both extremely pissed and depressed about the whole thing because she was supposed to come the night before, but like I said, one bad thing after ( Read more... )

Friggin, this always happens when involving me. Ashley was supposed to be picked up at 7 something and be here around 9:30 but its 10:11 and her rided didnt even show up yet and its an hour and a half ride from there to here meaning I'm not going to be able to friggin see her tonight! :( It could be worse... she could be not coming at all, but with ( Read more... )

I kinda see stuff from the past hapening all over again and it's not good. I know if I want it to stop, I have to do something about it but I don't want to risk losing something I have. I could just be worrying over nothing though... I probably am. So what am I complaining for? Psh. I think I'm going to redo one of my old survey things I made.

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Very non-climactic day. I mostly redid my website, which is now up [ Blasphemy ], and talked to my Ashley. :) Only 3 more days and ill be able to hold her in my arms again. :D New Years is gonna be great because shes going to be the first person I see, touch, hug, kiss and all that good stuffs ( Read more... )

Ok, well with the changing of my web page (hopefully) one last time, I needed a journal to write in and instead of going back to Eternal_Dark, I decided to just make a whole new one seeing how you don't need a code to do so anymore. So soon my webpage will become my online portfolio since I got a new scanner and can scan my art. :) Which also means ( Read more... )