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[dark_mobius]

Eigentlich habe ich sehr wenig über den Tod meiner Großmutter nachgedacht. Hauptsächlich überlege ich mir, wie wenig es mich stört, dass sie gestorben ist. Und genau das stört mich. Ich denke, mir fehlt irgendwie eine Seele oder so

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[bobjackbob]

I was really close to my grandfather, and when he died (1998) I couldn't cry. All I really wanted to do was go on living my life. I thought the same thing about myself "wow I'm a monster, I really don't feel sad"...but eventually I stopped feeling guilty then one day like a year later I saw a picture of him and I couldn't stop crying for an hour. Even now I miss him. Death is weird because it's surreal and shocking. I don't think people even really understand it when they first hear about it.

[dark_mobius]

Yeah, I know what you mean. It's hard to take it in and realize that it's really happened. I don't normally see her day to day, so my life hasn't changed or anything. I suppose being with my family on Christmas and not having her there would probably make it hit me a bit more.