So today I woke up feeling somewhat okay because I knew mostly how the day would go. I decided to wear all black with a red plaid skirt and was greeted by an ice cold breeze. I went to school, sat though classes, watched the homework pile up, felt my face continue to break out because of stress, and went to a friend's house. I thought I would have ( Read more... )

I 'm trying harder to get Johnsonswort so maybe I can be a little less tense and maybe a little more happy. And these words from the song  "Given Up" by Linkin Park pinpoint my mood right now.
"I'm my own worst enemy
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me"

and ( Read more... )

Single Awareness Day

> Got back from Hiking 4 miles in a forest near my house with my dad

>washed clothes

>started baking brownies

>got in a fight with grandma cause she said my brownies were gonna taste like shit and she wanted to "help" me ( was actually dictating)

>drank a Monster, blasted my ipod (to drown out grandma), and finished the brownies ( Read more... )

Well, it's nation Single Awareness Day. Damn. Anyway, I'll be attempting to back brownines from scratch. If all else fails, two words: brownie mix. Or I could try make cupcakes with cupcake mix.  I don't know ( Read more... )

I've been working and working, pigging out, working, sleeping for an hour when I get home, waking up to do homework, and going to bed around 1am. I've been waking up at 6am to start the process all over again. I dread each and every day. My new phrases have been: "I don't want to go back," [referring to school] and "I want to get the fuck out of ( Read more... )

1. Drowning
2. Fighting by throwing books at a middle-aged Nazi
3.Being stabbed in the roof of my mouth, having blood squirt everywhere, and having teeth fall out

More nightmares. I'm not very happy. But the past few days I've managed have a sound sleep.

But let me rewind and go back to wednesday night.

Wednesday night: My bio teacher went super crazy ( Read more... )

It's been a long week. I watched as Obama walk into the white house and jealously watched other people have fun at all the balls. I got to go to school late on tuesday. It didn't really help my condition though. I had been working like a dog all of saturday and sunday and monday. I hardly had any sleep. I still hardly have any sleep or rest. I ( Read more... )

In my quest to be more happy, positive, and have more self confidence, I've hit a road block. I have managed to look somewhat towrds the light, but I have been a bit irritated and angry. But that isn't my problem. My problem is bigger. My problem is something I'm not really sure how to solve. My problem deals with dreams. Each time I fall asleep I ( Read more... )

I bought the Sims2 game and has been completely addicted to it like crack. And I have a weekend comepletely filled with homework, studing, and projects. *Insert the screaming here*

It's been HELL! OMG it's been hell. The work had just piled up in an instant. I fell behind on my math homework. I had 3 headaches. I had to take naps each day after the afterschool program (which ends around 6pm) just so I'd be able to stay up until midnight or later just to finish projects or study. It's been a nightmare. Time to try to be ( Read more... )