today..is sad. i cant think, all i can do is cut and take pills... i need somthing.. help me someone

and we broke up. nuff said.... its killing me... nothin i can do tho. ill miss it.

this is rediculas. kat says all these things to me of how we are gonna be together forever and all these about ouur future and how we will always be happy... then she breaks up with me yesterday... i lost everything i had... now her. then about an eternity later we get back together and i thought everything was worked out just fine... wrong. she ( Read more... )

tonights my last night here.. i wanted it to be special but kats sick and i dont wanna make her feel worse. its killin me that shes sick on these days tho. this could have been the most porn-esque time but she was sick. i hope the ( Read more... )

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it ( Read more... )

i feel like an asshole. ive been very selfish andungrateful. im a jerk. im just feeling rushed. fuck kids this is pissing me off, my whole attitude towardw the situation is very poor... goddammit whats wrong with me. im acting like every other guy now.. thats not what i want i dont want to be like other guys... cuz she can have other guys.. i wana ( Read more... )

im at home now... god im tired, i saw kat today <3. shes soo fantasic. i went and played with her for a lil bit... quite the adventure trying to go see her, going to grossmont and being bored and lost... hehe, but i ended up seeing her anyways. as e and scott went to go see her a cop pulled us over, it was lame we werent even going that fucking ( Read more... )

is it wrong to say that i am crying... i hate myself more than i could possibally hate anyone else. i am such a fuckin failure. i hurt the one person that i love and cherish more than life itself.now she doesnt wanna talk to me. goddamit, due to my drunken escapaids i have destroyed my life even more. the stinking reek or failure eminates from my ( Read more... )

im here at auroras house... struggling to spell correctly.. im drunk, i havent drinkin anything in awhile but man o man im wasted right now... sloshed beyond all recognition. im sad, depressed and drunk and homless and in love and tired and i smell a little funny right now and drunk and ummmmm yeah.... hehee... ugh. i saw my kitty kat today!! ( Read more... )

I FEEL LIKE AN ASHOLE AND A PRICK! i dont know what ive been doing wrong... but i know that im a selffish asshole. the only people i give a shit for arent my family, but my friends. i treat them all like shit. im undeserving of my friends. im insecure and im ungrateful, a prick, an asshole, and some jerk off who pushes everyone away. the only ( Read more... )