It amuses me how you can give so much of yourself to one person and it will mean nothing to them. You feel like they are your shoulder to cry on and then they just dissappear. Maybe they think you are using them. Maybe they are just tired of hearing you complain ( Read more... )

haha i figured it out. Here is a sampling of AJ.

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I hate my brain. I dont want to think about you anymore. Why can't I ever sleep?

Last night was fun except my hand is slightly red from crissy's hair. Everyone's hair looked awesome though so its all good. The park was fun too but it made me miss AJ and a few other select people. But that's ok. Thinking about that stuff makes me realize things that I didnt see before. Which is a big help.

I have to tell a few people something but I'm so afraid to tell them. I think the reason that I've been wanting to tell them is because only 2 people know and one of them is Ian, who I try not to talk to and then the other is my mom. And I don't feel like I can talk to her anymore either. And this issue has been bothering me alot lately, and I just ( Read more... )

my new sn is thefirststarout

just to let you know

so if you want to reach me thats the place to look.

Wow, I haven't written in forever. But, I'm back now! I've actually been busy.. which I never am. But I have been. And boys are awesome. Well at least for this week I will be saying that ( Read more... )

uhh.. surprise surprise, AJ left today. I don't even really remember what happened since monday. It was all just so much so fast. I don't understand. And it was so short of a time. I miss it already and Im so sad. It's not like crying is going to change anything right now anyway ( Read more... )

i went to the beach yesterday, and got sunburned. But it's gone! I was all excited about that ( Read more... )

Graduation is tomorrow. What the hell is that? It's so unreal. I guess after tomorrow night it will finally set in. Freedom is almost our-- what are we planning on doing with it? I am excited for project graduation, it better be fun ( Read more... )