As I always seem to say-- I don't know. It's hard to be with someone and then know it's right to be without them after a long time of on and off. It's like your being pulled at and ripped from the inside and it is no fun. Today was ok but I pretty much wanted to cry the entire time. It's like I can't be friends with him and I just can't bear to be ( Read more... )

Well, going to see Ian today, hmm. Going to the mall to 'talk' and then I don't know what else. I will be good and fair and listen. I don't know. Everyone is telling me it's stupid but I'm going to be stupid then I guess. I got my hair-cut for anyone that didn't see it. I like it, it's VERY short but it's fun and I might dye it i don't know what ( Read more... )

Today was hell to wake up to after having off yesterday but now just one more day to spring break! My physics teacher decided to be an ass and say that we are going to do a lab on the thursday they took back for spring break but I'm still not going that day. Oh well. My grades were aweful this marking period but again, oh well.

I bought some new ( Read more... )

No school today--woohoo. I slept until like...11 and then met Matt at vet's park to walk our dogs cause he called me up and wanted to talk so we went there to talk. That was fun and I hadn't seen him in awhile so it was awesome to see him. Then I came home and just sat around, talked on the phone with about five people (who would guess that I hate ( Read more... )

I went to the doctor's today...most things are alright, so that's good. I didn't find out about the letter I got because stupid me forgot to bring it with me. Everything else is good though so I'm alittle less worried ( Read more... )

Today was well, a 'forget about everything and pretend to be happy' day, which was fine by me. My sister came home so I complained to her for awhile and that made me feel slightly better and i miss talking to her so it was good to see her. I just cant wait to not have to go to high school anymore because it is way too early and I am just done ( Read more... )

It really is awful when the one person that you want you know in your brain that you can't really have them. And then the other person you were almost positive you could spend your life with breaks your heart, more than once. I am going through withdrawal from guys, I didnt think that it was possible in such a short time but it is. I'm going to ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do, I'm confused ... AGAIN. There is just too much going on and im stressing about it all. I don't know if involving anymore guys in my life is such a good idea right now. Maybe I should just stay single, not forever but just for right now because it's just too confusing and winds up depressing. Oh well, hopefully it will ( Read more... )

Well, can't sleep so I'll update. News this week ( Read more... )

I really hate being accused of something I didn't do. I go into work yesterday and they tell me it was $75 short and that me and the other girl working are going to have to pay for it. Yet they go on to tell me that I'm one of the best employees and all this other crap, it really pissed me off. I mean I'm not stupid enough to take $75 and think ( Read more... )