It has occurred to me that in order to move forward, I have to let some things go. As such, I am drifting farther and farther away from a good number of the friends I have made here in Madison, and some refuse outright to even speak to me for reason I am either fully aware of, or not aware of at this moment. Those people aren't really friends, are ( Read more... )

Well, the ex stopped over tonight. We talked for a while, and then she made the mistake of telling me to be honest. So, I was honest. I could see her trying to fight with herself about whether or not to start an argument that she had no ammo for. In the end, I think I regained a bit of my lost self, the lost confidence when as she was leaving, I ( Read more... )

Well, how to begin. I woke up around 11:30 PM last night, and dinked around online for a while. Not really accomplishing anything, but it was entertaining to a point. Went back to sleep after reading some Star Wars RPG source books, and playing around making a character. Not that I know anyone geeky enough to play that around here. Went back to ( Read more... )

Savage, barbaric, sadistic, wicked, deviant ( Read more... )

Hope. Sometimes, it's the little things in life that can give a person hope. Sometimes, it's an epiphany. Either way, it's nice to know that hope is still alive ( Read more... )

How to explain how I feel. I can't, really. I don't have the word for it. I feel like I am emotionally numb inside, but it's just a cover for a deeper rage and horrible sadness. I know I have friends that love me, but I feel a loneliness so fuckin' deep, it tries to take over my life. I can't fall asleep with friends. I can't hold a friend, let ( Read more... )

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So, anyway. A few of the people on my FList have been doing this Meme-thing in which you give them the year you were born, and they give you a year in your lifetime to write about. 
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1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME:(first pet, current car): Chuin Tempo ( Read more... )

Wow it's been a while since I posted here. A lot has changed. I am no longer single, I am working on passing the classes I can save, and I am working on a couple different projects, and succeeding. I am happy, and it's a good feeling. I suppose I should go into a bit of detail ( Read more... )