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I am insecure about the way I look, only because I think you look prettier. I am too compassionate. I let people walk all over me. I gave my heart to the wrong person. And can't seem to fill the hole. If you fall in love with me, I'll take advantage of that and use you for all you're worth for my own comfort and security. Until I've ripped your heart out more than once and I'll still come back for more. I want only what I can't have and if I can have it, I don't want it anymore. I trust too easily. I love too easily. I never forget you. Or anyone. I am always deep in thought. And I was probably too deep in yours for comfort. Maybe thats why it happened. We got too close too fast. It was too much. I can be extreme. I run from my fears and problems. If I'm hurt I shut that area out completely. I can't let things go. But am a tremendous actor. I daydream more than I live in reality. Its my form of escape when running fails me. My heart is the most easily broken thing you will ever encounter. I'm scared of commitment and will go to the highest extremes to avoid it. Because I'm scared to be trapped in something and not be able to get away. I can't imagine the day when I stop loving you and I hate myself for every minutue of it.
all I want is love.