iight this wont be a friends only post... i figure once a week i'll make a non friends only post.. yeah nice... anyway ... umm the last week.. i was gonna have a huge ass mother fuckin party tonight but my parents changed their mind and decided to stay home so i was gonna have it at a hotel and what nto... well i havta be home by 1 am.. which is ( Read more... )

from now on my journal will be Friends only...that way i dont have to have little shits that dont know thair head from their ass tell me how im lying about shit that im not lying about....people on the friends list include: joel,dave,adam, ahh shit anyway if you can read the next post than u know ur on the list..other wise fuck off

adam thanks for the talk today that was nice it calmed my nerves a little i get bloodwork done at 2:30 than i have another doctors appt. at 4:30 blahh im scared 4 real... as in this could ruin my life my future all of that they'll be able to tell me in 15 min if i am or not... if its a no im gettin the shot right then and there... adam asked me if ( Read more... )

i took a test today.. my life is officially over done my future is now non existant ... the one thing i never wanted to happen looks like in 8 months will happen.... and i lied about shit a long tiem ago... and it was just a plot for my grave.... lets just say truthfully the last time i had sex was october 28th..... denise made me take a test and ( Read more... )

i hate this feeling.... the sad depressed one.... the one where u wanna come home and someone be there to run up and hug you or to kiss you on the neck.... i miss that i miss being with someone but i dont miss the drama and the arguements i miss being happy dammit and theres only like 10 people who has ever been in my life that make me happy ALL ( Read more... )

i feel sorry for adam i mean shit i hate how people act like they own people and thats what tori does she acts like she owns adam then talks shit about him all the time and its bullshit ... she'll never talk shit about him 2 me but she'll mention shit when im around never directly sayin ADAM but she'll be like HE did this or i went to the moives ( Read more... )

ahhh i hate when people come over and they knock on your door and wake you the fuck up... damn how i hate that dave and andrea came over around 3 to see if i wanted to go to the movies with them i said no and we hung out here and watched big money hustlas and plotted the kristy vs laura the dumb blonde bitch scheme.... yes the 10th shall be great ( Read more... )

wow.... damn ... holy fuck ya know last night kicked some ass its like noon and im JUST gettin home from joels mom called at like 7 am where the fuck are you um who's house did you call... ah okay i just waned to make sure you were safe tell joel to say hi to his mom for me man i love my mom some times i didnt drink or smoke but yeah joel gave me a ( Read more... )

its like 10:15 now im gettin ready to leave joel is pickin me up at 11 and we might go pick corey up before the party at 12 man a party and im not drinkin or smokin... haha should be fun and a party in new castle at that haha gotta love joels place though i thought about bringin dave with me but he works till 1 and when he gets off he'll probally ( Read more... )

drama blah gay...

not going out tonight.... may be around 11 or 12 but not now...