First of all, I still easily remember my password from over ten years ago for this account. That has to be some sort of accomplishment since I struggle with my passwords with things I sign into monthly ( Read more... )

I know its been awhile since I added an antry. I don't think if familiar faces even read this any more or its soft porn for the middle aged people. Well, anywho, I have my own apartment. No roomates, no boybriends,. I am dating someone I like alot but I don't live with him. I'm completly independant. It feels wonderful but scary at the same time. ( Read more... )

Moving back to Orlando might be the best decision I have ever made for myself. I didn't do it this time for any relationship bullshit. My love life or lack of sucks but I'm not worried at all. My mom bought a puppy and he's so excited to see me. I'm just going to focus on myself and my real estate career and partying like its 1999. Oh yeah, life is

I finally have my own place to stay. Found it in mid November through a coworker. No one to clean up after. No one to feed. Its great. The only downer is that I'm alone much of the time. Staying in a small confined space with no real human interaction messed with my head a little. I didn't have a television for a few weeks and all I did have was a ( Read more... )

Well. It looks like life played me a cruel joke yet again. James broke up with me to see if he can pursue a relationship with his ex gf. He said he wants to be with me and that I make him happy but he's in love with her. Its a really long story and I replayed the events over and over again in my head I think I'm going to loose it. I've also been ( Read more... )

Cut myself open ( Read more... )

You know you work at a liquor store when the owner says its okay if you're drinking/smoking on the job as long as you're not messing up and you're happy. I told my boss Ms. Rita that customers were asking me if I was drinking anything because I kept giggling at work. So thats what she replied with. So now everyone thinks I'm either smoking pot or ( Read more... )

Argh. It of course happened to me again. I'm just going to sew myself up because its not going to be any use anyways. Sucks when you want it more than the bf. Always happens. Shit me and Jason would go almost two months without it. I got bitter. I'm fucking bitter and frustrated now. I kind of blew up at James when he did finally come to bed. He ( Read more... )

Great wonderful day and night yesterday. I got the tickets for Fear Factory at the mall yesterday and as soon as James got home we left. But as he was getting ready we had another "talk." He told me things are going to be better. He told me that he told his ex not to come around anymore for a long time. She thought a few days but he clarified it to ( Read more... )

Thats what I really need in my life in this moment of time is to go to a concert and listen to loud hard music. Of course there's nobody I know around here that actually likes Fear Factory. I love them. I hope they're not sold out by time I buy them. I'm taking James along with me. I hope he'll drive. We can even take my car if he pefers. I just ( Read more... )