i could always get worse

[darkelfdelila]

well im writting to you all now because manda and trishia are filling out apps. and i dont feel like doing mine right now. we are getting ready to watch a movie after they are done. im feeling kinda myself agian today. i havent felt like this for about a week or two. and when i saw myself i mean sad and pathetic. everybody knows im sad but i dont

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Rambling of sorry

[woodoelfopansy]

I'm sorry. For many things. For not being there more, for not being able to take you from your saddness, for not being able to make you happy except for the fake happy. I love you and I wish that I could make you better. I know I can't and you are going to say not to be sorry for anything but, I can't help it. I feel at fault for something and whether I am or not doesn't matter to me. I just don't want you to cry anymore. I don't want to cry. I don't want you to feel like you want to die for even a little while. I don't think you should have to feel that way. I want you to be happy

[frimples85]

Sweetie, if it's bothering you and making you sad, then it does matter; so don't say it doesn't. I love you and I want to be able to help you, but we've been through this enough for me to know that if you are sad, nothing I do or say will make you happy. Just know that I am here whenever you need or want to talk to someone. I love you darling, and I will always be here for you.
Morise

[darkelfdelila]

to trish:
no being sad doesnt make me happy, if it did that would be very odd. to stop all the comotion im just not going to write about me being sad. or try cause i know ive said i wouldnt anymore and i have so i will just try harder now.
to manda:
thank you baby. i know youll be there for me. thats what sisters are for. and i know youll always be my sister. so there for you will always be there for me.
to both: i love you bye bye

i don't know what is making you sad either

[karebear99]

but don't feel like you can't talk about it. You should be able to talk about it to those who care about you the most. who are you talking about? I guess you probably won't tell me but since noone else asked i will. "i want someone to know how i feel but its usless to think that someone would care. what does it matter if s/he knows or cares. i dont want to know if it would change the way i feel. because it doesnt seem like that person would care."
I don't know who that person is but if it is my brother then, what happened? i feel like i am half a world away cause i don't know anything. i love you and im here if you want to talk. i know i said that before and you can't call me but do what i do. thomas can call me so if you are still talking to him call him and tell him to call me and tell me to call you. gotta go now my deepest love to you princess. may you wrap it around you like a blanket and may it keep you warm and safe from all the hurts of the world.
karebear

Re: i don't know what is making you sad either

[darkelfdelila]

i know i can talk to ppl about it. but there is no need to now. everything that i was worried about before is gone. now i have new worries but i will deal with them. and of course im still talking to your brother. why would i not, that would be kinda mean. but n/e way. thank you for caring it means alot. i love you, Babs

Re: i don't know what is making you sad either

[woodoelfopansy]

Just a question... why did you tell my sister and matt what was wrong with you but, you wouldn't tell me or amanda? I just want to know. I feel like you don't want to talk to me like you used to anymore. Don't hate me.

Bebo

[karebear99]

of course i care, why wouldn't I? I love you and I am here for you whenever you need me.