I give up on everything. Maybe trying to be friends is a pointless thing. It's like I'm the only one trying. And if he can't tell me shit, how am I supposed to be able to tell him stuff? I can't confide or talk to anyone who can't do the same with me. If you don't trust me like I do you, what's the fucking point? Honestly.

Even though I'm surrounded by a a group of friends, but I still feel alone and sad. I always feel alone no matter what. i don't know why. i want to stop feeling. To stop having emotions and be a cold hard bitch. But I don't know if I can. I'm too nice of a person. Damnit ( Read more... )

It's too hot to drink right now. I just brunt my tongue on it a little bit. i hate sitting alone. it makes me feel vulnerable. I don't like that feeling. I just really don't like feelings. they need to no exist or something like that ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what to do. I'm trying to get better and to do better. But I feel over shadowed. Like it won't make a difference at all. I went to the doctor today and I'm borderline manic depressive. I don't know if I can handle that. Not again. I just want to make it stop. I want the knot in my chest to go away and the stomach sickness gone. I want ( Read more... )

I hate feeling lonely! I never feel like this. Please make it stop. please.

I had a draft saved and I had no idea what it was or what I was trying to say ( Read more... )

hey everyone.
just letting everyone know that I am still alive and stuff like that.
and that you people should come visit me sometime.

yeah.

just a small update to let everyone know that I am alive.
though I'm highly ticked off.
and I really don't know why.

okay. I lied. I do know why.
but....hmm...yeah.
i don't know what i'm saying right now.

oh, and I don't have to have surgery, if worst comes to worst i'll just have to do radiology and/or chemo treatments :(

ok. so Lance is just awesome right now.
because of this
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 1, 2006 ( Read more... )

[no one here knows the person ( Read more... )