i live for the end of living here.
and thats really sad.
most kids are like "yeah! moving out! cool!"
but are really scared.
but i'm not scared to at all.
not scared, not hesitant, not worried about what i'll miss.

my mom controls everything.
from my haircuts, to what i eat, to what towel i use, what shoes i wear.
evertyhing.and its not fair ( Read more... )

i got my pictures back ( Read more... )

michael got into new paltz :D

i wanted to get off longisland this weekend.
get out of here for a break and a deep breath.
but i kind of didnt have to.

ryan came finally.sorry dee, you missed him ( Read more... )

its time for a real update ( Read more... )

please do this! ♥

1. Comment with your name, and I will reply with something I really like about you.

2. I will then tell what song(s) remind me of you.

3. Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

4. Last, I will try to name a single word that best describes you.

5. Put this in your journal.

♥, kait!

no one reads this anymore, so i'm thinking of just deleting it. >_lately my mother has been giving me a pretty extensive amount of lectures and shit about being fat.. and honestly- i dont think i am. i believe i'm overweight- but not obese. its weird. most mothers have daughters who say they're fat, and they reply with "no sweetheart, you're ( Read more... )

bright eyes
i'm holding you close but you seem so far.
why should i try?
i know i'll never get that far.

sorry the last entry was one enormous vent-a-thon. (gay?)
it fucking snowed again today.
zach and i agree that mother nature's a lesbian. ♥
i shoveled. twice.and you still cant tell i did anything ( Read more... )

not much has improved. for me anyway ( Read more... )

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i never thought i could watch someone come apart from the insides to outsides.
but every day i see strings fall loose.
and every day i see hope lost..
with all this complicated i can't even get pass the thought of thinking and wondering
whether help or understanding rings truer.
and i don't know how to ( Read more... )

i've been home less than an hour ( Read more... )