all hallow's eve is upon us again. dia de los muertes is an unending one this season. but for some reason beyond my comprehension, i can't stop smiling.

lest the heavens or hell bear an intolerable weight upon my shoulders, the only cries you may hear from me are the harsh convictions of my truth. lest reality casts a shadow of burden upon my path, the road i forever tread is my own struggle to be dealt with as i see fit. i may seek you, but i will not seek to find you. i will not question your ( Read more... )

as i carress the barrel of this gun with my lips, i cant help but think of how wonderful it all could have been. as i carress the silence with my unwilling ear, i can hear the laughter of an unending innocence. as i peer into this relentless darkness, i can see an eternity of chaotic joy. and as i carress the trigger with my shaking finger, i can ( Read more... )

we've never been this close to the end, friends. and we'll never be any closer to the beginning ( Read more... )

i dreamt last night that the skin on my right hand and fore arm was rotting. by the time i'd noticed, it was just a red membrane holding in the fluid, tendons, muscles and bones. as the dream progressed, the situation didnt. the membrane broke and greenish yellow fluid begand pouring out. after the bile and blood flow stopped, the bones came out, ( Read more... )

my hands smell like gasoline ( Read more... )

i vomitted into my hands and let the bile run between my fingers. no one seemed to notice. at least not until i started touching thier foreheads. they flinched at first, but the fad soon caught on. before long there was a six hundred and sixty six mile long line of "people" waiting patiently for my regurgitated blessing. one man brought me a large ( Read more... )

-pt.1 "the fire ( Read more... )

while i was walking from my car to the cafeteria today, i day dreamed of a world without end. a life without meaning, so to speak. i imagined mindless drones wandering past eachother without even the slightest comprehension of the thoughts that can consume a man's mind in a simple two minute stroll. i dreamt of humans talking to machines that were ( Read more... )

i rested with a rotting corpse ( Read more... )