Leave it to me to live out a lie

[darkfire1]

The other day I shamelessly overdosed on OTC drugs that don't help me at all. When I finally got home and stumbled into my room, I could feel my heart beat at what felt like 4 times it's normal rate. As I lay there on my bed I wondered if that was finally it, if I would die after I fell asleep. I remember thinking the only reason I didn't want to

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[vitaminease]

Maybe I'm retarded, maybe I'm stupid. Did you post this to reach out? I dunno. For help? For insight. So we know how bad your pain is

[darkfire1]

No, it wasn't a cry for help. It really happened and upon reflection, I thought it was pretty sobering. I figured that in a journal that occasionally focuses on my life, this was about as honest as anything else. I made it private but I figured why bother? It's not something I'm ashamed of or care to hide. It's about as real as life gets.