Why do I bother
Ok here it is the bitchy, depressive against ridden post everyone hads just been waitin for.
Why do i bother to give a fuck about anyone? All it has ever done is come back to bite me in the ass, I've never been good enuff for anyone I never will be but for what ever reason I just can't sepperate my self from all this bull shit I have pinned together and tried to call a life. Trough my own shortsightedness and shit I have chased off everyone that has ever ment anything to me. I am alone, empty, devoid of even the smallest glimmer of anything good in my life right now. Sure I have friends , and I cheresh them but I want something more, I don't want to be alone, it scares me to death. But Oh well right? I had better get used to it because I'm going to be alone for a very long time. Those few people that mean anything to me have all but abandoned me, I have one friend who pops on, porceeds to tell me how fucked up his life is , telling me that he's just walking out talks to me on the phone for all of perhaps 5 minutes and then tells me that he has to talk to someone importaint.. well fine, fuck it ya know I try to keep my problems to my self and not burden others with them. And do ya knwo what I have found out? LIFE'S A BITCH AND YA DIE. that's all there is to life, pain suffering and the ultimate release of sweet death. I've come to a point in my life where I really don't knwo anymore, things used to be so clear , so cut and dried but anymore .... there's just n opoint to anything. I've lost the only thing that ment anything to me and I doubt I will ever get it back..
Why do i bother to give a fuck about anyone? All it has ever done is come back to bite me in the ass, I've never been good enuff for anyone I never will be but for what ever reason I just can't sepperate my self from all this bull shit I have pinned together and tried to call a life. Trough my own shortsightedness and shit I have chased off everyone that has ever ment anything to me. I am alone, empty, devoid of even the smallest glimmer of anything good in my life right now. Sure I have friends , and I cheresh them but I want something more, I don't want to be alone, it scares me to death. But Oh well right? I had better get used to it because I'm going to be alone for a very long time. Those few people that mean anything to me have all but abandoned me, I have one friend who pops on, porceeds to tell me how fucked up his life is , telling me that he's just walking out talks to me on the phone for all of perhaps 5 minutes and then tells me that he has to talk to someone importaint.. well fine, fuck it ya know I try to keep my problems to my self and not burden others with them. And do ya knwo what I have found out? LIFE'S A BITCH AND YA DIE. that's all there is to life, pain suffering and the ultimate release of sweet death. I've come to a point in my life where I really don't knwo anymore, things used to be so clear , so cut and dried but anymore .... there's just n opoint to anything. I've lost the only thing that ment anything to me and I doubt I will ever get it back..