Four Poems
Here are four poems that I had written awhile ago.
~Directions~
So alone
Sky darkens
Emotions run deep
Feel them in your soul
and they won’t let you go
Time stands still
Yet moves faster than you can move
Run far away
To a new life
A new person
Deep hole
Brings new ground
But is it good
What is the sense of it all
I scream to live
Yet i don’t
Star shaped lives
Each pointing to a different direction
Life pulls and pulls
Decisions to be made
Tears fall
Smiles on faces
Going on and on
Is it an act?
Only to fail
I fail so easy
It’s the only think i know
How to do so well
~The Years~
Years went by
Happy at first
By year four..tears were a part of daily life
Were you the same person or did I change
By year seven..I feared you
Shielding my face and running
Emotions come and go
I can’t keep up
The love vanished
Don’t know if it ever was there
Scared to move on
But I must
I want to
You won’t win, You can’t win
I will find him
~Scars Run Deep~
They come in the darkness
Sometimes alone - sometimes together
I cry out
Does anyone hear me
Help me to get through this pain
Fuck- I’ve done it again
Will I ever stop
Blood running down my arm
Such release…but then
Eyes judging me - scars that won’t go away
Music- is my only escape
Soft, hard, drums, guitars, bass- anything to get through the next cut
~Untitled~
Another day, Another scar
Will I ever stop? I feel like I’m crazy…maybe I am
The demons won’t leave me alone, they are all around
Laughing, accusing, screams of terror
No hope, no sense of pride, all there is
Shame…..and guilt
I want out…but out of where
God help me….
~Directions~
So alone
Sky darkens
Emotions run deep
Feel them in your soul
and they won’t let you go
Time stands still
Yet moves faster than you can move
Run far away
To a new life
A new person
Deep hole
Brings new ground
But is it good
What is the sense of it all
I scream to live
Yet i don’t
Star shaped lives
Each pointing to a different direction
Life pulls and pulls
Decisions to be made
Tears fall
Smiles on faces
Going on and on
Is it an act?
Only to fail
I fail so easy
It’s the only think i know
How to do so well
~The Years~
Years went by
Happy at first
By year four..tears were a part of daily life
Were you the same person or did I change
By year seven..I feared you
Shielding my face and running
Emotions come and go
I can’t keep up
The love vanished
Don’t know if it ever was there
Scared to move on
But I must
I want to
You won’t win, You can’t win
I will find him
~Scars Run Deep~
They come in the darkness
Sometimes alone - sometimes together
I cry out
Does anyone hear me
Help me to get through this pain
Fuck- I’ve done it again
Will I ever stop
Blood running down my arm
Such release…but then
Eyes judging me - scars that won’t go away
Music- is my only escape
Soft, hard, drums, guitars, bass- anything to get through the next cut
~Untitled~
Another day, Another scar
Will I ever stop? I feel like I’m crazy…maybe I am
The demons won’t leave me alone, they are all around
Laughing, accusing, screams of terror
No hope, no sense of pride, all there is
Shame…..and guilt
I want out…but out of where
God help me….