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God, I get it already, I do make mistakes and I'm sorry about them, everytime I mess up I feel so horrible that the pain of blade shoved into my chest could not measure half of it. I'm sorry, I try and show that I'm apreciative, god knows I do everything you ask, but I still make mistakes.
I'm only human, and a teenager, It's bound to happen, and everytime it does I feel the pain that you put into me, and damnit I know I've done something wrong...but I just don't want to feel like dieing everytime. I don't want to hate myself...I just want...i just want...
I guess it's just how I'm meant to be and be treated.
Rush upon me with sword and stone and beat till I breathe no more...