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after the mt. rainier field trip with my eng/bio class, i finally feel like i am making friends at school. but for some reason, i have even less desire to go to class than before. maybe i'll just start waking up really early before school and drinking for a solid hour or 2 before class...joking...but only about the drinking part. maybe i'll start making myself really good breakfasts and tea in the morning. then i'd have something to look forward to. also after the trip, i started writing rhymes. which is probably totally lame and makes me sound like a douche, but i feel like it's something that i'm good at. i wrote one today off thetop of my head and then found the instrumentals to "still dre" and it fit perfectly. it was a good feeling. i think i like a girl in my eng/bio class, BUT: she is a junior in running start; her AIM screen name is jesusisrad; she knows/is friends with jayson wilson...kind of a deal breaker. all of that aside, she and i get along pretty well, we have a lot of things in common, and we've been talking on facebook a lot(lame:<). i'm sure that no one cares. at all. i have decided that i am going to shave my beard tomorrow and then record via my digital camera the growth of said beard over several days. i got new shoes. i like them. they are nikes. i forgot to take my books out of my car before we took it to the shop to get it fixed from when i rear-ended someone on i-5 at the beginning of the month. now i have to go in the morning to see if i can get them. i've skipped my music theory class 3 times and my eng/bio class once now. i miss a lot of people i feel disconnected from pretty much everyone i have ever been friends with. even though i'm not. it's a weird/bad feeling. i miss singing. i miss having any kind of range. i have a hard time even singing in the car because i just disgust myself with how bad i sound now. people talking about having gone to home coming makes me miss having occasions to dress up. all i do is go to school and then put on really shitty clothes to go wash dishes in. i am going to apply for a job as a busser at arnies, but they do open interviews at 3 on wednesdays and all of the sudden my boss has started having me work at 4 on wednesdays. it's bull shit. i just want to quit, but i need a new job first. i really want to work at arnies. i was talking to jim and deanna this weekend about it. they said that carina made really good money there and that if i got a job there, i would get to work with her this winter. speaking of carina and her parents, i finally saw carina this weekend. it had been a really long time. it had been even longer since i had seen her parents though. that was really good. i just went over there when carina wasn't home and we talked for about an hour. they seemed really sad that i hadn't visited them or talked to them in so long. they want me to live with carina when i go up to western. that would be fun(ny)/kinda weird. we are like brother and sister, but she freaked out when i touched her bed when matt and i helped her move. i don't know how she would handle living with a boy. whatever. i need to sleep. good night.