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Well, here i am again...a bad updater i am
Its been a long time since i did a proper realistic update and a long time since i took the time to think about what lifes really been like. As such , time to put things in order and hopefully some perspective. Since last year , ive had several major changes in life, First , the girlfriend , gone-and for good this time i do think , and there was the unfortunate rebound onto the 16 year old i dated for all of a month before getting the stupid im pregnant texts and also being dumped for a girl......yes , this is where you all get to say i told you so:P, i think its a fairly safe assumption that wont happen again. And im also fairly certain unless the world tunrs upside down , ill be single for a long time to come. In other news , i have been through a lot of jobs this year , having finaly decided id made far too many mistakes at sainsburys to ever be put in a position of responsibilty again , i handed in my resignation in april. I was lucky , i got a good job almost straight away , as a manager with greggs. Unfortunately , due to the situation with the ex , i was very messed up in the head and screwed that one up good and proper to the point where i figured it was time to cut my losses....so i resigned...again. I then went to what was possibly the worst job ive ever had...taking a place at a company where i had applied for the position of manager , and probably would have got it had i not been down in portsmouth when the interviews were being held doing my usual good work with the sea cadets....bollocks. Still , im done there now as well...after for the first time ever in 5 1/2 years of working being sacked from a job. Due to all that , im in dire straits with money....had a call from the credit card company today to be told ive missed 5 scheduled monthly payments , and am now£380 over my limit and in arrears....this concerns me...thankfully it seems to be ok , as long as i make some sort of payment by next friday i wont get the next stage in the proceedings , which is assumedly court .
Im not going to bitch too much about money , as i know there are people in worse situations than I , and im thankful that i do have what i have , but i did feel the need to explain why , if im not out and about much , its not because i dont miss people, and ifim not talking to you much , its because i have a lot to think through.
In another note , i do seemingly have a job to start soon , as long as i get past four days of training....its nothing glamourous unlike the job id applied for with the RFA(which also went tits up , but thats another story) , its just simple security guard work , for MITIE security at enfield magistrates court.....hopefully its the fresh start i sincerely want and a chance to ake stock of my life , and perhaps even consider going back to some form of education.....no more pissing around , no more stupidity...etc
Hopefully ill get to be where i want to be someday , when im all grown up and ready to face the world on my own....as if nothing else , the last few months have shown me , its quite possible im not.
Hope i didnt bore those of you silly enough to read that...