Fragile Eyes

The eyes of a woman
hides the soul of a girl.
Alone and cold,
Falling apart she cries.
The loving touch of another feels so foreign.
She tries to love,
but falls short.
Her heart attached,
it breaks a little more each day.
She tries to flee,
run away, escape.
Being alone with her thoughts is poison.
So many thoughts,
the confusion,
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I did something i'm not fucking proud of today. I won't say what,but it involves invading privacy. I relized now, how much he loves me. He'd die for me if I let him. This came to late and now he's gone. I just hope his love doesn't die. I need to have faith that it will all work out. Although I can't just sit here and wait. He wouldn't want that. I ( Read more... )

I fucked everything up! I'm a fucking mess right now! I'm, for some reason, afraid he wont write me or call me when he gets his phone back. I'm afraid he'll find a new love or just forget me. I don't know why I'm so terrified. I think it's because I don't want to be overly optimistic. Then again my mom is a fuckig downer. She does nothing, but ( Read more... )

Since starting my medication and having it finally do it's job I have been able to think clearly for a little bit. I'm about to say something so obviouse you'll think about smacking me the next time you see me. "Nothing can be fixed if I just sit back and watch it fall to pieces!" *Shoulda had a V8!*
    I know...sometimes I'm a bit slow when it ( Read more... )

    So tonight didn't go all to well. Krista had an anxiety attack for the first time since November. It was a bad one. I was fine and feeling great and then out of fucking left field on comes the nausea. It went down hill from there. Imagine your thoughts going in re-wind and fast forward at the same time. Not only does it make you nauseous...it ( Read more... )

Ok so I lied...I guess I will keep writing blogs, but I can tell you one thing...they wont be the same old bull shit I usually write about.

I'm starting to get used to the idea that I have lost so many people in my life. It sucks I will admit, but those of you that are still around are the ones that matter to me. You understand that people make ( Read more... )

This blog is going to bounce back and forth so bear with me here ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a strong sense of guilt today. I had a very strange dream last night about people who hate each other getting along at... wouldn't you know...a LARP! By the end of said dream I ended up commiting suicide. I woke up kind of alarmed. I decided to look it up in my dreamer's dictionary. Apparently the enemies getting a long was to indicate ( Read more... )

In my last blog I kind of over stepped the line of religious tolerance in to religious in tolerance. I apologise. I didnt check my facts on the statistics of holiday suicide rates. It's a widely believed "fact" that many people commit suicide during the winter Holidays. Apparently that is wrong...Suprisingly Spring is worse ( Read more... )

I'm in a very strange mood today...not quite happy, not quite sad. Kind of numb actually. This is a new one for me ( Read more... )