I can't do this anymore. It's sad really that I can't be what he wants because of his actions. He wants me to be stable, but fucked me over at every turn. He created the mess that I am. I was stable for almost ten years before him. He made me never want to trust anyone. He broke me. And his continuing to talk to her. Screw them both. They both ( Read more... )

Hello Sweetie, My darling David ( Read more... )

I wish things could be different. I wish that I could be the kind of girl that someone could love. I wish that I wasn't worthless. That I was wasn't nothing. That someone could possibly ever care about me. But I'm not worth it. I'll never be worth it. I'll never be loved. Why am I even wasting his time? He deserves better. He deserve to find a girl ( Read more... )

I want to message you so badly. Tell you that I miss you. That I can't stand not having you in my life. Still kills me that I don't know what all it was that happened. All the things you wanted to share. It kills me knowing I may never talk to you again. That I may never feel your arms wrapped around me. That I may never feel your lips on my ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I had finally figured out what I had wanted in life and it was all taken away with no explanation. I was told exactly what I wanted to hear and then told it wasn't an option. It's sad because I always sad that girls were stupid for letting themselves get worked up over guys. I always thought I would never be the ( Read more... )

Hello Sweetie! My dearest David ( Read more... )

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Unfortunately my life has taken a turn for the worse. A girl at work is trying to find me a boyfriend so that I can have a husband and a baby. And cause she wants me to forget the asshole who broke me. :( Then Valentine's Day stuff is everywhere. All it does is remind me of one of the worst things I've been through. Reminds me of last year. And on ( Read more... )

I don't know if I'm ever going to stop telling you I'm sorry. I'm sorry I don't know how to handle anything. I just don't have any experience. The conversation we had earlier is the longest conversation outside of work related conversations and my mom that I've had since the last time I talked to you. I tried messaging old friends, never got past ( Read more... )

I hadn't had any dreams lately that I remembered. It was a good thing. This one was similar to the ones I was having before, but not the same. David and I were cuddling in his bed talking. It was so vivid and we were so happy. :( Anyway, we start laughing just as someone comes in the house. It's Radeane. She says she's sorry, but she needs her " ( Read more... )