sometimes i feel like in my writing, i am very fake. i present a person who is much more enthused than would be the normal case ( Read more... )

looking for a new car was fun for about two days. i am sick of fucking looking for cars, especially online. i hate it. i want my fucking car fixed! i love my car. if anyone knows of a 92-97 celica or 95 or newer eclipse for sale for 3500 or less, let me know. i have been doing a lot of research and i know that getting a 95 celica is doable for 3000 ( Read more... )

i didnt think i would be going to a funeral this week. everything is quite a bit numb right now. i am always skeptical when young people die. he was in his early 30's and he died in his sleep. he worked out at least 3 times a week. how does that happen? he was the nicest guy. i cannot believe it.

that's it! no more cheese! cheese makes me feel like dying! i will eat it, but not on pizza, not on burritos, not on burgers! not in large quantities! i cant do it! i am dying of clogged arteries! i feel like shit! cheese makes me feel like shit! please help me conscientiously quit cheese!

got a check for 100$ from my old apt deposit today
expecting a check tomorrow for 1,800$ for my car (from insurance co)
expecting another check for 600$ for my car (to be bought by my uncle)
expecting at least 300$ from selling shit on ebay (in 7 days)

going to look for new cars on saturday. i am eyeing this black 93 passat with 101K miles on it.

i'm getting a check for the "worth" of my car soon. then i am getting a new one. probably a vw or acura. my cars damages were more than it was "worth" so unfortunately it isn't getting fixed. not my decision. my car is no more. honestly, it upsets me a great deal because i have had a lot of memorable moments in my car and it has been an extremely ( Read more... )

last night = fun! hooray! seeing parker = hooray! seeing nick = hooray! seeing joe, and yuka, and people and having breakfast and last minute meet up plans / things = hooray! not having money though, not hooray. uuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh my head hurts! i feel like a disgusting bastard with gingivitis. i think i botched the spelling there. oooooooooooh well!

i have beautiful friends that i love, and i am no where near them. i hope you all know i love you.

i fixed my scarf errors. i thought it wasn't possible. there is one tiny mistake in the whole scarf and i'm pretty sure no one is going to be inspecting it. knitting with horrible cramps today. man i love life.

carlos and i are going to neighbors tomorrow, assuming i am feeling good. i probably shouldnt go, but am. i think. we will see, since my ( Read more... )

i always thought i could like all people regardless of their life decisions. now i know i am wrong. i cannot allow myself to talk to someone who does hard drugs. i cannot respect someone who lies about it either. tonight i am heartbroken, mostly because i love my friends and i would never want to lose one of them to drugs. i am just sad that opium ( Read more... )