I stared smoking again.

but then I threw my pack out of the window.

i miss her.

I don't think I want friends anymore.
Not like I have any right now anyway.
I learned that counting on people is russian roulet.
Fuck that.
I like being by myself anyways.

For the first time in my life, I can feel my spine.

I wanna start smoking again.
FUCK!

I met a guy
at envy.
he called me the next day.
asked me out to dinner.
and I am wicked skeptical.

I don't know if I am willing to except.
Even if it were someone I had a crush on.

uggh.

Theatre has gotten better ( Read more... )

So NYC was soooo sweet.
waaay better than last year.
It felt good to be there.

Rent was amazing.
Knock off bagging was strange.
and the make-up I got was (of course) beautiful.

So I am contemplating doing something nice that would take a lot of balls.
I hope I don't lose my dignity.
Its worth trying.

I love Lizz Potter.
and everyone else.'

So everything has been crazy recently ( Read more... )

I am now a proud employee at Vista foods in Bedford.
fuck Stop N Shop.

Christmas was wacky in a good way.
My grandma was drunk on pain meds.
I was doing shots with my uncle.
My mom was a "lunger" (tombstone)

It was fun.

I hope new years is great too.
maybe I will get my first new years kiss...
if not I will take a shot.

eh...whatever

So Audition dates are set.
And my anxiety is alhhhndshf;kwrtjouhj;kwqjBOJTYBOJAEWO!

I want to be in this play so bad.

I already got my song, I just need a piano player.

Ah!
Stressing already!