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Haven't wrote in here for donkeys years. Summer is the best time of year and I . dont . want . to . go . back . to . school . * does childish stampy sulky thing*
What have I been doing recently? Well... Mike and I took the money for the Canada trip to school, only to realise that once we were like ten minutes from the mall ( after walking ) we were informed the photos from prom had to be collected that day *curses* ( so we were hardly destined to walk allll the way back again and then back again (if you/ or even I, know what i mean :S))
Anywho.. Mike bought books at the mall which he is reading to me which is super cool ( i get to rest on his chest while listening to his voice. whats to complain about?), even though I hate the book as it is about Morrissey, but he has listened to me droan on about women, gossip, their sex life and kids, in my past reading books. So we must be equal. I had to decide between green lacy nighty or cute minnie mouse and then we troddled off back home.
Inevitably I did loose the game of monopoly which has been on my floor for days. But after, i kicked his ass big time. I think the score is now 4-4 (?) Ignoring todays game with his little sister as he won that one, but hey i won cludeo twice! I am queen of cludeo as i have lost my touch at monopoly. My ass got kicked at pairs by Vicky too but i think i played a good game =) I did win cards (Y
Dont you just love the out doors at night. Most evenings we go on the trampoline and stare at the sky snuggling up. Outside smells different at night, why is that? Either way its super cool. There arent many stars about recently either but that just makes them easier to wish upon. I just wish i could remember the damn ryhme, i can get the end half, but not the beginning.
So generally life at the moment has its ups and downs, obviously i wont talk about the downs , just the ups. So nows the point i blabber on some more about the ups...
I think i am being forgiven bit by bit, I understand that trust needs to be grown again and stuff, but hopefully it wont be long. The person inside of me (as she describes) is telling myself i deserve it, which i do, its just so different from before. Im not disliking the present, its just a missable past. which even to my very criticle person inside feels is understandble. I am prepared to wait for aslong as is needed though - i think i owe that. I just wish i had Bernards watch sometimes and could turn back time (he can do that right? Or did he just stop it?*shrugs*) I guess its true how you dont realise the importance of things till their gone
I am getting like my mother. Dont you just hate it when you realsie parts of your parents which you used to find humourous begins to rub off on you. *hmph* I get soppy at films now adays. My girl and Titanic made me cry in the space of 4 hours? maybe less? And they just laugh! its not funny- its very emotional! I am also super stroppy, moody and stubborn, but then again - ive always been like that...
Next week Im off places with Mike and his family, which i wasnt going to do, but then realised i needed to take every opertunity to get to know his family more <3 So that should be cool. I need money but hey.
This is the longest post i think i have ever done and i just dont seem to want to top typing, despite writers block and the constant change of events and mood.
I want my exam results when every one else does. damn holiday. Two weeks is a long time. Too long i think. =( But communication is possible on the ship so that is a bit better, but not much.
So, i should come to an end now as its getting kinda late.
I did mean it.
All.
I love you.
Good afternoon good evening and goodnight
What have I been doing recently? Well... Mike and I took the money for the Canada trip to school, only to realise that once we were like ten minutes from the mall ( after walking ) we were informed the photos from prom had to be collected that day *curses* ( so we were hardly destined to walk allll the way back again and then back again (if you/ or even I, know what i mean :S))
Anywho.. Mike bought books at the mall which he is reading to me which is super cool ( i get to rest on his chest while listening to his voice. whats to complain about?), even though I hate the book as it is about Morrissey, but he has listened to me droan on about women, gossip, their sex life and kids, in my past reading books. So we must be equal. I had to decide between green lacy nighty or cute minnie mouse and then we troddled off back home.
Inevitably I did loose the game of monopoly which has been on my floor for days. But after, i kicked his ass big time. I think the score is now 4-4 (?) Ignoring todays game with his little sister as he won that one, but hey i won cludeo twice! I am queen of cludeo as i have lost my touch at monopoly. My ass got kicked at pairs by Vicky too but i think i played a good game =) I did win cards (Y
Dont you just love the out doors at night. Most evenings we go on the trampoline and stare at the sky snuggling up. Outside smells different at night, why is that? Either way its super cool. There arent many stars about recently either but that just makes them easier to wish upon. I just wish i could remember the damn ryhme, i can get the end half, but not the beginning.
So generally life at the moment has its ups and downs, obviously i wont talk about the downs , just the ups. So nows the point i blabber on some more about the ups...
I think i am being forgiven bit by bit, I understand that trust needs to be grown again and stuff, but hopefully it wont be long. The person inside of me (as she describes) is telling myself i deserve it, which i do, its just so different from before. Im not disliking the present, its just a missable past. which even to my very criticle person inside feels is understandble. I am prepared to wait for aslong as is needed though - i think i owe that. I just wish i had Bernards watch sometimes and could turn back time (he can do that right? Or did he just stop it?*shrugs*) I guess its true how you dont realise the importance of things till their gone
I am getting like my mother. Dont you just hate it when you realsie parts of your parents which you used to find humourous begins to rub off on you. *hmph* I get soppy at films now adays. My girl and Titanic made me cry in the space of 4 hours? maybe less? And they just laugh! its not funny- its very emotional! I am also super stroppy, moody and stubborn, but then again - ive always been like that...
Next week Im off places with Mike and his family, which i wasnt going to do, but then realised i needed to take every opertunity to get to know his family more <3 So that should be cool. I need money but hey.
This is the longest post i think i have ever done and i just dont seem to want to top typing, despite writers block and the constant change of events and mood.
I want my exam results when every one else does. damn holiday. Two weeks is a long time. Too long i think. =( But communication is possible on the ship so that is a bit better, but not much.
So, i should come to an end now as its getting kinda late.
I did mean it.
All.
I love you.
Good afternoon good evening and goodnight