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[darkskweek]

More and more I realize I don't know what other people think of me. I'm not sure if it even matters, honestly, but I just... I looked at myself in the mirror, and wondered what I would think of myself if I had to meet me. Would I even understand myself?

Fuck.

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[nintenho]

LJ apparently wants me to be a creepy stalker and told me you posted, so here I am!
I cannot tell you what others think, because I am not them, and I have not talked to you in a while so I do not know what has been going on with you, but I think you are pretty damn awesome and amazing, for whatever my opinion is worth. But really it is your own that should matter, not anybody else's.

As for understanding yourself, I do not know what to say to that, I am sorry.
Yeah, I am not much help >.<

[darkskweek]

Hey, hi, thanks, creepy stalker. Yeah, I don't really know, either. Usually I don't consider it, but lately I've been wondering what I look like to other people, strangers or friends. I don't think I could ever really understand, and maybe don't want to. I'm not a fan of myself in pictures, so I can't imagine how unflattering I must look in the eyes of others. Better not to dwell on it!

And you're a fine help!

[nintenho]

The pictures I have seen, you look great! But I might be biased, though I like to think I am a good judge of how people look. Just not myself, so I understand that and the not being a fan of oneself in pictures, but I think a lot of people dislike seeing themselves from another perspective because it looks so wrong from how we usually see ourselves in the mirror.

Like you say, best not to dwell on it though, it will drive a person mad.

[swyntell]

Of course you wouldn't understand yourself from the outside, does anyone truly understand another person? I still don't understand myself lol. Also, I'm trying to get to where I DGAF about what other people think of me. Which is hard from the anxiety, but I try to punch the anxiety in the face as much as I can and tough through. Anyway late rambling, I hope life is going well for you. Weird thing is I was actually thinking of you today... and Drace and DP and all the old days when the world was young lol. Just thinking I wish I had a better memory because I feel like we all had some exciting adventures in our own version of Neverland and now I've grown up and don't remember it very well. Out of curiosity I went to Livejournal to see if anyone had posted in the past three years since I've checked and I saw that you just did! I promise I haven't been stalking your journal for years haha but it was nice timing to see there was someone out here in the great void of Livejournal.

[darkskweek]

I've just gone the other way, is all. I used to literally not care at all what people thought of me, never gave it a thought. I don't think I could understand myself through another person's eyes, not sure I'd want to, really. I'm growing to like myself more and more, and maybe I'm late to the game in that department, but we're getting there. Otherwise, though, I'm well.

And, honestly, I'm glad to hear from you! I don't talk to much of anyone from that time anymore, and my memory is pretty bad, as well. I'm certain DP remembers much more of it than either of us, and would delight in reminding me us what awful children we were at the time. I miss my joy of reading that developed during that time, writing with you all, and I think I'll pick up a book this weekend, start into it again. I hope you're well, I literally have no idea what sort of life you lead!