now the improtant shit sortaish...

[darkslight_hope]

Ok so she wants to give up again... nothing I can say or do will change it so why do I fucking care so fucking much? and why do I hate how much I care... hating yourself for caring so much... didn't know it was possible.. but anyways... none of this is important

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[puck_13_dm]

you make me want to scream god make up your mind live or die people care u just need to get that in your FUCKING head once u do that u will relize life goes on yaya i know who am i to talk well im telling u so u will learn from my mistakes.

[darkslight_hope]

everything I've been trying to drill into your head... "people care u just need to get that in you FUCKING head once u do that u will relize life goes on" haven't i said something like that before? I've tried dying before Chelsea... before I knew of such things as sharp objects and their sweet release... back then pills worked for me... and one night I just couldn't swallow enough of the bottle when I wanted it to end and puked it all back up... believe me or not... a year later i started cutting... so i tried to die for the first time in sixth grade... if you don't believe me ask KC... she doesn't know all of it but I let enough slip one night when I lost my mind to anger... and I won't learn from your mistakes because you haven't made many that I haven't before... she hasn't said it but i know someway Riss does love you... i don't care how I know it is true Chelsea please of all things believe me on this...

[puck_13_dm]

ok u havent made my mistakes u wanted to die, wrong if u wanted to die u would be dead there is no shuch thing as an accedental suicide u could have died then but u chose not to u can die now but u chose not to i have my reasons for walking this earth and when those reasons r fullfiled i wont be here