Always fearing for the worst

[darksome]

I just can't imagine turning old waiting for my heart to suddenly come to a stop. It's a scary thought, even worse, I always feel like I will have a heart attack any minute. This is something I have experienced ever since I was a kid. I also have a lifelong fear of having a head tumor which will go undetected and eventually kill me. I'm probably

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[flaccidfakeflan]

i have this thing, though i don't want to classify it as OCD because everyone has their own behavior habits, whenever i'm in a room. every five min ill look around and make sure everything is in the same place. and as i see it in my head ill say the object to myself, screen, clock, chair. sometimes its bad that ill start to have a headache, and eventually i cant restrain myself anymore and i have to start touching every object as i say it. i think its something to have to do with my need to make sure everything still exists, to confirm my existence, and every object has a purpose, so maybe if i touch it ill also have a purpose. but i don't know. i just hope it doesnt spread to when i'm outside. i don't think it would. things are static in rooms. outside things are alive.

please don't tell anyone.