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I'm going to type an excerpt from my journal at Life 2004, Phoenix, AZ. It's hot. I'm with people from the youth group in my church, Gaithersburg Chinese Alliance Church. I'm trying to write my way out of some of the things I'm thinking through.
Crowded people - 70 people - in a community size affair. I'm pooling my thoughts, but, like the pool, they're crowded. Is knowing God a bunch of sustained thoughts or an extended euphoria? It's an excitement and a brain-scratcher at the same time. But that's not what I thought of today, just what comes to mind now.
During the morning, althrought, GOd was challenging me to see his glory. I remember that profound idea, that God was gi-normous, like he could fill up the whole field of my vision, like a lightning flash, but forever. But God - seeing God - inspires a fear of overwhelming, knock-you-down fear. It was humbling, a matter of unimaginable scale, like I were a gnat seeing the face of a person, So many gnats on me now, but I don't mind. That's smaller than the difference between God and myself.
There's a Pump-it-up, DDR-like machine over in this Cyber-Cafe. It's one of many stations - they have this one thing where you're in a moonbounce and you get 5 pound poofy gloves. I slugged it out with Tim, and we knocked each other out =D.
I feel like talking to someone, someone new, somewhere where I can sit down. I've been walking around a long time and I think I resprained some toes of mine.
Crowded people - 70 people - in a community size affair. I'm pooling my thoughts, but, like the pool, they're crowded. Is knowing God a bunch of sustained thoughts or an extended euphoria? It's an excitement and a brain-scratcher at the same time. But that's not what I thought of today, just what comes to mind now.
During the morning, althrought, GOd was challenging me to see his glory. I remember that profound idea, that God was gi-normous, like he could fill up the whole field of my vision, like a lightning flash, but forever. But God - seeing God - inspires a fear of overwhelming, knock-you-down fear. It was humbling, a matter of unimaginable scale, like I were a gnat seeing the face of a person, So many gnats on me now, but I don't mind. That's smaller than the difference between God and myself.
There's a Pump-it-up, DDR-like machine over in this Cyber-Cafe. It's one of many stations - they have this one thing where you're in a moonbounce and you get 5 pound poofy gloves. I slugged it out with Tim, and we knocked each other out =D.
I feel like talking to someone, someone new, somewhere where I can sit down. I've been walking around a long time and I think I resprained some toes of mine.