I may have to start writing down things on paper to try to clear my head of some of my thoughts, and to make sense of others.  Maybe a pocket sized voice recorder could do the job ( Read more... )

1 Month down...  Too many more to go ( Read more... )

It's kinda funny how things work out in the long run ( Read more... )

If an angel were an apple
Would you rape him from place
Burgle from his person his deital grace

Attune them to you chassis
Pursuing the sky

So yeah, fading from memory... It's seems so "me" at the moment.  Another year totally away...

Tick-tock, the clock is nearer to aught.
Mind is wracked, rampant with thought...

... the time is drawing close.  it's surreal to think about it.  no one really is acting like we are going to leave.  no change in patterns or habits.  same day to day flow.

You give someone a spoon full, they want the bowl; an inch and in return they want a mile ( Read more... )

If I could change things, would I?

If I cared enough then, would it make a difference now?

If I cared enough now, would it make up for then?

Sometimes, dream can leave a cut. 
They make me miss what I had. 
They more recently showed me what could've been, and it made me depressed.

It was a blatant shot.
It's my fault. 
There's no going back...

But maybe, I will get a second chance.
Maybe.

I went 20 days without drinking and without caffeine.  That ended last night.  Not a bad run.  I was shooting for 30 days.  But it was a fun night ( Read more... )