Jobless and running out of money... :P
I have not endeavored to write in a journal for quite some time. I feel that I have been quite reluctant to do so out of fear. I fear that in my current state I would be forced to see the depressing reality of my situation.
1. I'm jobless.
2. I'm more in debt that I ever have been.
3. I'm worried that I'm falling into lazy patterns in life.
4. I'm confused about girls in my life. This one I could expand on further, but, for the sake of privacy in a public journal, I will simply expand by saying: I'm not sure what I want from woman in my life right now.
Of course, things could be worse.
I should be thankful for quite a lot of things in my life. Why don't I list off the things I am doing to resolve my issues.
1. I've applied to over 20 decent jobs and I still have a few more to apply for soon.
2. I'm getting interviews, I'm feeling optimistic that something will pan out. Once I get a job, the money will be great for Winnipeg. See also: I have 2 houses and a nice paid off car. My 2nd house is almost ready to be sold and HOPEFULLY we'll make a few extra thousand dollars, which will go back to my pocket. See also: I have 2 new roomies moving in soon, who can help me pay for rent. See Also: my old roomies are still sticking around and are paying me. :)
3. I've joined a fencing club. I've joined a photography class. I've planned and organized the first few sessions of my table top RPG. :) I've attended and got other people interested in LARPing. I've gone out dancing and met old friends, turning them back into new friends. I've even discussed future plans for Burning Man this year (MAN I HOPE I CAN GO!). Seriously excited to party in Nevada this year. I think I should party single, or at the very least.. NOT BRING A GIRL.
4. *insert an entire journal entry here* ... My love life is private. What I will say... is that I need to figure out what I really want for myself in terms of romance right now. What can I provide? What do I want from others? It's not something I will discuss further here. We should talk in person though, whoever is reading this and cares to help me out. :P
...
Really... I'm never going to be bad off. I've got plans. I've got my head on my shoulders.
I'm starting to feel whole again.
Next up.. MORE FITNESS. MORE LOVE. MORE ACCOMPLISHED GOALS.
I don't know if I could say it enough... but I'm glad that I have the opportunity to see my parents a lot more and to have a project to work on together (the 2nd house, their house). I also am glad that both my brothers are still a part of my life, even if it's not all the time.
I know that we've all got our own flaws.. and that we get bitter or... whatever the word is... but, we're still all around... within a few blocks of one another. I love you guys, don't ever really go away. I'd be upset. :P
<3
1. I'm jobless.
2. I'm more in debt that I ever have been.
3. I'm worried that I'm falling into lazy patterns in life.
4. I'm confused about girls in my life. This one I could expand on further, but, for the sake of privacy in a public journal, I will simply expand by saying: I'm not sure what I want from woman in my life right now.
Of course, things could be worse.
I should be thankful for quite a lot of things in my life. Why don't I list off the things I am doing to resolve my issues.
1. I've applied to over 20 decent jobs and I still have a few more to apply for soon.
2. I'm getting interviews, I'm feeling optimistic that something will pan out. Once I get a job, the money will be great for Winnipeg. See also: I have 2 houses and a nice paid off car. My 2nd house is almost ready to be sold and HOPEFULLY we'll make a few extra thousand dollars, which will go back to my pocket. See also: I have 2 new roomies moving in soon, who can help me pay for rent. See Also: my old roomies are still sticking around and are paying me. :)
3. I've joined a fencing club. I've joined a photography class. I've planned and organized the first few sessions of my table top RPG. :) I've attended and got other people interested in LARPing. I've gone out dancing and met old friends, turning them back into new friends. I've even discussed future plans for Burning Man this year (MAN I HOPE I CAN GO!). Seriously excited to party in Nevada this year. I think I should party single, or at the very least.. NOT BRING A GIRL.
4. *insert an entire journal entry here* ... My love life is private. What I will say... is that I need to figure out what I really want for myself in terms of romance right now. What can I provide? What do I want from others? It's not something I will discuss further here. We should talk in person though, whoever is reading this and cares to help me out. :P
...
Really... I'm never going to be bad off. I've got plans. I've got my head on my shoulders.
I'm starting to feel whole again.
Next up.. MORE FITNESS. MORE LOVE. MORE ACCOMPLISHED GOALS.
I don't know if I could say it enough... but I'm glad that I have the opportunity to see my parents a lot more and to have a project to work on together (the 2nd house, their house). I also am glad that both my brothers are still a part of my life, even if it's not all the time.
I know that we've all got our own flaws.. and that we get bitter or... whatever the word is... but, we're still all around... within a few blocks of one another. I love you guys, don't ever really go away. I'd be upset. :P
<3