my whole life i've had a goal...well a general one - to finish uni then figure it out from there. I liked having a goal, and i didn't mind working and living for it. but it made me wonder what is life like without a goal? do people create fictive goals in order to create a point in their life? Are people who work day in and day out with no 'goal' ( Read more... )

so this weekend was the Merritt Music Fest. it was a good time, and Laura came up to visit. we went to the lake, and bought cowboy hats and drinks, and got all pumped for the country music fun. Well i got a bit too excited, ate no food all day, and combined with alot of drinks, and smoking for the first time (a cigar), i threw up, and had to go ( Read more... )

feels like my days are getting shorter and shorter. instead of working 6:15-7:45am, it's now 7:30-10/11am. spend the day with the girls, then back to work at 3:15pm till 7'ish. it feels like i'm doing nothing. like i did nothing today but run, swim, clean my bathroom, talk to my mom, grate chese, buy mushrooms...then go back to work. and tomorrow, ( Read more... )

exhuastion, grumpiness, loss of voice....o, how i love swim meets. back to back 11-hour days of needy parents, crying kids, and itchy bathing suit bum rash.

but free deck food served on platters on constant rotation.

so a just had 3 friends come and visit here in m-town. it was my first vistitors since i've arrived, and it was so nice. i didn't know where to show them tho, as i've explored so little myself, but we had a good time. it was nice to hang out, even for just a couple hours with girls my age, and not 10 year olds or 40 year olds ( Read more... )

one of my swimmers, 7 year-old girl asked if my tattoo was sewed on to my leg. i laughed. i wonder who told her that one ( Read more... )

so last week, i went for a long run/hike up to the summit of M-town, and i came home with not only a blister, but one that already popped itself. it was caused by an unruly thread clump on the inside of my runner. so anyways, i ductaped the thread clump, stayed off it a while, then tried running again today and AGAIN it caused this wierd blister on ( Read more... )

i wonder what the 'JCB' in Nizlopi's JCB song is about? Janet's creepy breasts ( Read more... )

i am a freak ( Read more... )

so i jsut got an email from my dad. it was so wierd, he said when he disaasembled my old dresser to move it, he found a letter i wrote that said on the outside 'never read, even if i'm dead.' i'm so curious what was in it. but i told him to throw it out. it's easier than holding on to it i guess, and if it's there, they may be tempted to read it, i ( Read more... )