Act like big city kids when the sun goes down.

[darwins_god]

All my life I've been changing. Growing, maturing, learning from my mistakes and my faults. Every time I reach a new stage of development, I look back and despise the nakedness of who I was. I read things I used to write, I see the way I used to think, and I become ashamed of who I was and grow to love who I have become even more. Logic tells me

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I'll wait for it to come

[somewhereundone]

Acquiring maturity shouldn't be a process of your scowling the person you once were. It's about appreciating how you've grown, admitting what you still have to learn, and acknowledging the person you were as a kid in the process of growing up.

You have unreasonably high expectations of your 18-year-old self, Jena. You're not supposed to be free of flaws and immaturity at this age, and you probably never will be. Never be ashamed of who you are or what you were. You're learning from the past and moving forward...that should at least bring you some solace. I know how much you want to be this ideal image you have in your head, and yes, you'll come closer to it each day. But don't beat yourself up about falling short.

Flaws are only flaws when seen through a particular perception, after all.