so this is what £200 gets you these days
I went shopping!
I wasn't sure at first about the black dress with the red belt - the high neckline and long skirt looked dowdy on the hanger, but I think it looks very elegant on. I'm not sure when I'll wear it though - a little too formal for the wards, so perhaps smart evening events?
I'll spare you the half-baked psychoanalysis, but basically, I decided to buy myself smart, attractive clothes because I've noticed I hide myself away; I almost invariably just wear trousers and a top when I'm in the hospital, loose and unflattering without being scruffy, because I don't want anybody to look at me. Being looked at makes me very uncomfortable - a hang-up from my childhood as the chubby, spotty, ugly girl - and nothing makes me happier than not being considered attractive. But I've decided that I need to change the way I think - feeling ugly isn't helpful, and although I'm not stunningly attractive, I really ought to make the most of what I've got. So that's my new-academic-year's resolution.
I wasn't sure at first about the black dress with the red belt - the high neckline and long skirt looked dowdy on the hanger, but I think it looks very elegant on. I'm not sure when I'll wear it though - a little too formal for the wards, so perhaps smart evening events?
I'll spare you the half-baked psychoanalysis, but basically, I decided to buy myself smart, attractive clothes because I've noticed I hide myself away; I almost invariably just wear trousers and a top when I'm in the hospital, loose and unflattering without being scruffy, because I don't want anybody to look at me. Being looked at makes me very uncomfortable - a hang-up from my childhood as the chubby, spotty, ugly girl - and nothing makes me happier than not being considered attractive. But I've decided that I need to change the way I think - feeling ugly isn't helpful, and although I'm not stunningly attractive, I really ought to make the most of what I've got. So that's my new-academic-year's resolution.