this house is amazingly cold.........all i want right now is to have someone here to sit in front of the tv with, cuddling under a blanket. its the little things you miss the most. even the bullshit. everything that made it what it was.

im trying my best to deal with this, but its hard realizing what it is ive lost.....above all my best friend. this just isnt something you can ever prepare for. i just want one of us to be happy.

this house is so cold. no heat for some reason. shit just keeps on coming up roses......

can sprint just ARBITRARILY shut off someones cell phone......i paid my bill completely less than 2 weeks ago. so now im sitting here, convinced that i'm missing tons of important, pressing phone calls. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. so i go and pony up an additional $75 that i really don't have to get it turned back on and they kindly inform me that ( Read more... )

this is my last LJ post. im retiring from all of this. i saw sheer terror tonight, and to be honest, they were probably the one thing that couldve kept me from walking out into bowery traffic. for the first time, im admitting that im not going to be OK. since i know that you'll probably read this, i want you to understand theres no anger....no ( Read more... )

i can take a hint.

2 hour long conversations leave me not wanting to leave that porch or worry about what happens next. all i want for those i love is happiness.

well last night went better than i could have anticipated. im coming to terms with the things i fucked up, be it not being 100% honest to avoid a fight, holding back my feelings about the card, or not listening to womanly intuition. i just hope that certain things can be forgiven in the long run ( Read more... )

so this weekend......uneventful if nothing else. on friday night i went to Sciortino's with matt and mia and matt's ironworker friends. not a bad time, although i ended up getting sick and taking my leacve rather early. saturday was my mother's birthday, so i spent the day at her house. doing some chores for her and hanging out with my nephew ( Read more... )

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY ( Read more... )

My name is: chris ( Read more... )