LOG: Renji/Yukimura
YOUR CHARACTERS CAN'T SEE THIS ETC, ETC, ETC.
... Except these two went to a park, so maybe you did.
RATED R FOR "RENJI'S KIND OF A LOSER AND YUKIMURA'S A WHORE". What a fine pair they make.
Why do we always end up doing the serious tennis boy logs? Lame. Next time, I won't settle for anything less than a food fight. :|
Renji: *walks in Yukimura's room without knocking* So, I think we should go out.
Yukimura: *is laid back on his bed* Where?
Renji: Anywhere. *walks over and holds out his hand* It's supposed to rain later. We can go to the park.
Yukimura: *takes Renji's hand and sits up* No massage then?
Renji: *drags him up* There's time for that later.
Yukimura: *blinks* Okay.
Renji: *pushes Yukimura out the door*
Yukimura: Why the change of heart?
Renji: We're always in your room or my room. *waits for Yukimura to put on his shoes*
Yukimura: *puts them on* Is that a problem?
Renji: No. *shoves Yukimura out the door* I just. Want to do something.
Yukimura: *smacks Renji's hands away* And why the rush?
Renji: *catches one of Yukimura's hands in his anyway* I'm not really.
Yukimura: *looks at Renji* Then what?
Renji: Nothing. *kicks a pebble as they walk* Spontaneity is good, too.
Yukimura: Perhaps. *squeezes his hand* But it’s unlike you.
Renji: *looks up* Is that a bad thing?
Yukimura: No, not at all.
Renji: *smiles* Good. *arrives at the small park*
Yukimura: *sees a swing* Push me?
Renji: Gladly. *walks over and places his hands on the chains, waiting*
Yukimura: *sits and leans back* Did you want to talk?
Renji: *starts pushing, though not very hard* I don't have to.
Yukimura: You should talk. *smiles*
Renji: What about?
Yukimura: Anything. Everything.
Renji: *pushes Yukimura higher* That's a lot of talking.
Yukimura: I like your voice.
Renji: This is troublesome. I like your voice more than my own.
Yukimura: Should I sing?
Renji: You should do whatever you feel like.
Yukimura: *starts singing softly*
Renji: *pushes Yukimura slower as he listens*
Yukimura: *closes eyes and tilts head back, smiling as he sings*
Renji: *eventually stops pushing and lets the swing stop, then watches Yukimura quietly*
Yukimura: *reaches up and places his hand over Renji*
Renji: *kisses Yukimura upside down*
Yukimura: *stops singing and touches Renji's face gently*
Renji: *pulls away and goes to sit on the other swing* *reaches his hand out towards the middle for Yukimura's*
Yukimura: *threads fingers together* Relaxed now?
Renji: *swings himself by pushing with his feet* I... think so? I didn't know I wasn't.
Yukimura: *smiles a little more* You were edgy.
Renji: Maybe. *drags his feet against the dirt*
Yukimura: Why?
Renji: *shrugs*
Yukimura: Renji.
Renji: *pulls Yukimura towards him until their swings meet in the middle*
Renji: If you let go, we'll slam into the poles.
Yukimura: I know. *tightens hold on Renji's hand* What are you thinking?
Renji: Unnecessary thoughts, most likely.
Yukimura: I want to hear them.
Renji: Did... his post bother you?
Yukimura: *blinks* Which post?
Renji: The pirate guy. *pauses* I saw your comments.
Yukimura: Oh, Jack? He was flirting quite shamelessly with you. *frowns*
Renji: Yes, but - did it upset you?
Yukimura: *shifts* I didn't like it.
Renji: But... it's fine now?
Yukimura: *smiles at Renji* Of course. It wasn't you flirting with him.
Renji: Hm. *mouth twists before he slowly lets their swings down again*
Yukimura: *frowns* What else?
Renji: *stands up and waits for Yukimura*
Yukimura: *frowns even more but stands, reaching out to touch Renji's arm*
Renji: *smiles at Yukimura before walking to a nearby tree and sits down*
Yukimura: *follows and sits as well, knees up against his chest*
Renji: *picks at the grass*
Yukimura: *throws a blade of grass at Renji*
Renji: *blinks and looks up questioningly*
Yukimura: You're not acting like yourself.
Renji: I know.
Yukimura: Why?
Renji: I think too much?
Yukimura: Then let me hear what you are thinking.
Renji: You'll be disappointed.
Yukimura: *looks at Renji seriously* Tell me.
Renji: *mumbles* 'mstilealou
Yukimura: ...Pardon?
Renji: *puts his hands over his face* I'mstilljealous.
Yukimura: .... Renji?
Renji: *pulls at the grass frustratingly* I don't want to say it again.
Yukimura: No - why?
Renji: I don't know if there is one.
Yukimura: *shuffles closer to Renji, touching his leg* Are you upset with me?
Renji: *looks up sharply* What? No. *looks down again* You're fine.
Yukimura: Then what? Is it something I've done?
Renji: No. I'm not angry.
Yukimura: *looks away* What are you jealous over?
Renji: The same things.
Yukimura: Tell me.
Renji: It's just. Your flirting. No, it's only me.
Yukimura: My flirting?
Renji: It still bothers me. *sighs heavily* I'm sorry.
Yukimura: *frowns and bites his bottom lip* My flirting with who in particular?
Renji: People that shouldn't matter.
Yukimura: Like who? Tell me and I'll stop.
Renji: But I told you at the beginning that I'd never ask anything like that.
Yukimura: It's okay. Tell me who, please.
Renji: .... Akazawa.
Yukimura: *blinks* Akazawa? *blinks again* But he's only a friend.
Renji: I know. I'm being really stupid.
Yukimura: No. No, you're not. But... Akazawa... *frowns* He is a friend. Not like how we were friends, Renji. Just friends.
Renji: I know. *rips out another chunk of grass* I know all of that and I understand and I am. I'm being incredibly idiotic.
Yukimura: *leans over and kisses Renji's cheek* No, no you're not. I'll try to stop, I promise.
Renji: But you shouldn't have to. And I shouldn't act like I'm not used to it.
Yukimura: *strokes his cheek* I'll try anyway.
Renji: *grabs Yukimura's hand and puts his head on Yukimura's shoulder*
Yukimura: I want you to be completely happy and comfortable. *strokes his hair* Is there anything else?
Renji: *shakes his head* I only want to keep you around.
Yukimura: Good. You're all that I want. *pauses* I know... I've had more active history.
Renji: You and Sanada were serious for a long time.
Yukimura: *chuckles* Yes, yes we were.
Renji: I know you two probably... did a lot.
Yukimura: *shifts and sits back a little* You know Sanada wasn't my only other sexual partner, right?
Renji: *lifts his head and looks at Yukimura* What are you talking about?
Yukimura: *picks at grass* Just that I've had sex with other people then you and Sanada. *pulls a face*
Renji: I remember Saeki.
Yukimura: I never had sex with Saeki.
Renji: ... Oh.
Yukimura: Do you think I'll still be in one piece if I had? Shishido would have killed me.
Renji: You were with him before he was with Shishido.
Yukimura: I know. But he freaks out just knowing I've kissed Saeki.
Renji: I don't - I don't care about Shishido. *sits up* ... Who else?
Yukimura: Are you sure you want to know? It may change the way you think about me. *looks away, downwards*
Renji: Now you're overanalyzing.
Yukimura: Do you want to know or not?
Renji: Do you think I should?
Yukimura: *shrugs* It’s not something I'm ashamed of, and not something I keep hidden...
Renji: I'll listen to whatever you want to say too.
Yukimura: Envy...
Renji: *tenses*
Yukimura: How could you not know about him?
Renji: *looks away and chews on his lip*
Yukimura: Renji? *touches his arm*
Renji: *quiet* Is that it?
Yukimura: *closes eyes* No.
Renji: *stays silent*
Yukimura: *mutters* Crowley, when I was in Hawaii and at Kaidoh's party.
Renji: *nods blankly*
Yukimura: ...*softly* Jack.
Renji: *lets go of Yukimura's hand and wraps his arms around his knees*
Yukimura: *feels like crying or hitting something* I did something stupid for T-Tezuka.
Renji: You can stop now. *sounds harsher than he meant it*
Yukimura: I think that is it anyway. *is very quiet*
Renji: *stays silent for a long time, back to Yukimura*
Renji: ... Zero.
Yukimura: *runs his fingers repeatedly through his hair* I'm sorry I'm not as pure as you would have preferred.
Renji: I don't need apologies.
Yukimura: Then what do you want me to say? That I was a bit of a slut? I promise not to ever be like that again?
Renji: *shakes his head* Nothing like that.
Yukimura: Then what?! *stands and walks away*
Renji: *sits there for a while before finally getting up and walking until he's a few feet away from Yukimura*
Yukimura: *shoulders and back are tense* Well? Can't you bear to even touch me now?
Renji: *walks until he's in front of Yukimura, then wraps his arms around him* It's nothing like that. You do things because you need to - you've always been like that. I'm just... scared, that's all.
Yukimura: *remains tense* Scared of what? That you'll catch something? I hardly had sex with them because I needed to.
Renji: *shakes his head* That I'm not enough. Won't be enough.
Yukimura: How could you not be enough? I'm exactly what Envy calls me, or I was - a slut. I'm the one who should be scared. Why would you want something that many others have? *disgusted look*
Renji: It's an irrational fear. *pulls away slightly* You can't make me change my mind so easily.
Yukimura: I hardly want to change your mind. I love you. But I can't change what I did or take it back - even if I wish you were my first, like I was yours.
Renji: What you did then was when we were friends. I have no right to be angry about it.
Yukimura: Have you noticed, Renji, that I often say I love you or talk about it, but only half the time you respond but with I love your too?
Renji: *mouth opens, then closes* I don't do that on purpose. I do love you.
Yukimura: Hm. It doesn't matter. *sighs and rubs his face*
Renji: It does. *grabs Yukimura's hand* Do you need me to say it more often?
Yukimura: No, I don't need you to. *squeezes his hand*
Renji: Do you want me to?
Yukimura: I want only you to say it when you feel it.
Renji: I can't say it 24/7.
Yukimura: *looks up at Renji, smiles faintly* Are we okay then?
Renji: *nods, then kisses Yukimura softly*
Yukimura: *touches Renji’s face carefully as he kisses him back just as softly*
Renji: *pulls away and steps back, tugging on Yukimura's hand* Come on, let's go home. It'll start raining soon.
Yukimura: *holds onto Renji's hand tightly with both hands and nods* Okay. Don't want to get wet.
Renji: *walks back to Yukimura's house, hands swinging between them, and does dorky stuff like whisper 'I love you' into Yukimura's ear every 4.5 steps*
... Except these two went to a park, so maybe you did.
RATED R FOR "RENJI'S KIND OF A LOSER AND YUKIMURA'S A WHORE". What a fine pair they make.
Why do we always end up doing the serious tennis boy logs? Lame. Next time, I won't settle for anything less than a food fight. :|
Renji: *walks in Yukimura's room without knocking* So, I think we should go out.
Yukimura: *is laid back on his bed* Where?
Renji: Anywhere. *walks over and holds out his hand* It's supposed to rain later. We can go to the park.
Yukimura: *takes Renji's hand and sits up* No massage then?
Renji: *drags him up* There's time for that later.
Yukimura: *blinks* Okay.
Renji: *pushes Yukimura out the door*
Yukimura: Why the change of heart?
Renji: We're always in your room or my room. *waits for Yukimura to put on his shoes*
Yukimura: *puts them on* Is that a problem?
Renji: No. *shoves Yukimura out the door* I just. Want to do something.
Yukimura: *smacks Renji's hands away* And why the rush?
Renji: *catches one of Yukimura's hands in his anyway* I'm not really.
Yukimura: *looks at Renji* Then what?
Renji: Nothing. *kicks a pebble as they walk* Spontaneity is good, too.
Yukimura: Perhaps. *squeezes his hand* But it’s unlike you.
Renji: *looks up* Is that a bad thing?
Yukimura: No, not at all.
Renji: *smiles* Good. *arrives at the small park*
Yukimura: *sees a swing* Push me?
Renji: Gladly. *walks over and places his hands on the chains, waiting*
Yukimura: *sits and leans back* Did you want to talk?
Renji: *starts pushing, though not very hard* I don't have to.
Yukimura: You should talk. *smiles*
Renji: What about?
Yukimura: Anything. Everything.
Renji: *pushes Yukimura higher* That's a lot of talking.
Yukimura: I like your voice.
Renji: This is troublesome. I like your voice more than my own.
Yukimura: Should I sing?
Renji: You should do whatever you feel like.
Yukimura: *starts singing softly*
Renji: *pushes Yukimura slower as he listens*
Yukimura: *closes eyes and tilts head back, smiling as he sings*
Renji: *eventually stops pushing and lets the swing stop, then watches Yukimura quietly*
Yukimura: *reaches up and places his hand over Renji*
Renji: *kisses Yukimura upside down*
Yukimura: *stops singing and touches Renji's face gently*
Renji: *pulls away and goes to sit on the other swing* *reaches his hand out towards the middle for Yukimura's*
Yukimura: *threads fingers together* Relaxed now?
Renji: *swings himself by pushing with his feet* I... think so? I didn't know I wasn't.
Yukimura: *smiles a little more* You were edgy.
Renji: Maybe. *drags his feet against the dirt*
Yukimura: Why?
Renji: *shrugs*
Yukimura: Renji.
Renji: *pulls Yukimura towards him until their swings meet in the middle*
Renji: If you let go, we'll slam into the poles.
Yukimura: I know. *tightens hold on Renji's hand* What are you thinking?
Renji: Unnecessary thoughts, most likely.
Yukimura: I want to hear them.
Renji: Did... his post bother you?
Yukimura: *blinks* Which post?
Renji: The pirate guy. *pauses* I saw your comments.
Yukimura: Oh, Jack? He was flirting quite shamelessly with you. *frowns*
Renji: Yes, but - did it upset you?
Yukimura: *shifts* I didn't like it.
Renji: But... it's fine now?
Yukimura: *smiles at Renji* Of course. It wasn't you flirting with him.
Renji: Hm. *mouth twists before he slowly lets their swings down again*
Yukimura: *frowns* What else?
Renji: *stands up and waits for Yukimura*
Yukimura: *frowns even more but stands, reaching out to touch Renji's arm*
Renji: *smiles at Yukimura before walking to a nearby tree and sits down*
Yukimura: *follows and sits as well, knees up against his chest*
Renji: *picks at the grass*
Yukimura: *throws a blade of grass at Renji*
Renji: *blinks and looks up questioningly*
Yukimura: You're not acting like yourself.
Renji: I know.
Yukimura: Why?
Renji: I think too much?
Yukimura: Then let me hear what you are thinking.
Renji: You'll be disappointed.
Yukimura: *looks at Renji seriously* Tell me.
Renji: *mumbles* 'mstilealou
Yukimura: ...Pardon?
Renji: *puts his hands over his face* I'mstilljealous.
Yukimura: .... Renji?
Renji: *pulls at the grass frustratingly* I don't want to say it again.
Yukimura: No - why?
Renji: I don't know if there is one.
Yukimura: *shuffles closer to Renji, touching his leg* Are you upset with me?
Renji: *looks up sharply* What? No. *looks down again* You're fine.
Yukimura: Then what? Is it something I've done?
Renji: No. I'm not angry.
Yukimura: *looks away* What are you jealous over?
Renji: The same things.
Yukimura: Tell me.
Renji: It's just. Your flirting. No, it's only me.
Yukimura: My flirting?
Renji: It still bothers me. *sighs heavily* I'm sorry.
Yukimura: *frowns and bites his bottom lip* My flirting with who in particular?
Renji: People that shouldn't matter.
Yukimura: Like who? Tell me and I'll stop.
Renji: But I told you at the beginning that I'd never ask anything like that.
Yukimura: It's okay. Tell me who, please.
Renji: .... Akazawa.
Yukimura: *blinks* Akazawa? *blinks again* But he's only a friend.
Renji: I know. I'm being really stupid.
Yukimura: No. No, you're not. But... Akazawa... *frowns* He is a friend. Not like how we were friends, Renji. Just friends.
Renji: I know. *rips out another chunk of grass* I know all of that and I understand and I am. I'm being incredibly idiotic.
Yukimura: *leans over and kisses Renji's cheek* No, no you're not. I'll try to stop, I promise.
Renji: But you shouldn't have to. And I shouldn't act like I'm not used to it.
Yukimura: *strokes his cheek* I'll try anyway.
Renji: *grabs Yukimura's hand and puts his head on Yukimura's shoulder*
Yukimura: I want you to be completely happy and comfortable. *strokes his hair* Is there anything else?
Renji: *shakes his head* I only want to keep you around.
Yukimura: Good. You're all that I want. *pauses* I know... I've had more active history.
Renji: You and Sanada were serious for a long time.
Yukimura: *chuckles* Yes, yes we were.
Renji: I know you two probably... did a lot.
Yukimura: *shifts and sits back a little* You know Sanada wasn't my only other sexual partner, right?
Renji: *lifts his head and looks at Yukimura* What are you talking about?
Yukimura: *picks at grass* Just that I've had sex with other people then you and Sanada. *pulls a face*
Renji: I remember Saeki.
Yukimura: I never had sex with Saeki.
Renji: ... Oh.
Yukimura: Do you think I'll still be in one piece if I had? Shishido would have killed me.
Renji: You were with him before he was with Shishido.
Yukimura: I know. But he freaks out just knowing I've kissed Saeki.
Renji: I don't - I don't care about Shishido. *sits up* ... Who else?
Yukimura: Are you sure you want to know? It may change the way you think about me. *looks away, downwards*
Renji: Now you're overanalyzing.
Yukimura: Do you want to know or not?
Renji: Do you think I should?
Yukimura: *shrugs* It’s not something I'm ashamed of, and not something I keep hidden...
Renji: I'll listen to whatever you want to say too.
Yukimura: Envy...
Renji: *tenses*
Yukimura: How could you not know about him?
Renji: *looks away and chews on his lip*
Yukimura: Renji? *touches his arm*
Renji: *quiet* Is that it?
Yukimura: *closes eyes* No.
Renji: *stays silent*
Yukimura: *mutters* Crowley, when I was in Hawaii and at Kaidoh's party.
Renji: *nods blankly*
Yukimura: ...*softly* Jack.
Renji: *lets go of Yukimura's hand and wraps his arms around his knees*
Yukimura: *feels like crying or hitting something* I did something stupid for T-Tezuka.
Renji: You can stop now. *sounds harsher than he meant it*
Yukimura: I think that is it anyway. *is very quiet*
Renji: *stays silent for a long time, back to Yukimura*
Renji: ... Zero.
Yukimura: *runs his fingers repeatedly through his hair* I'm sorry I'm not as pure as you would have preferred.
Renji: I don't need apologies.
Yukimura: Then what do you want me to say? That I was a bit of a slut? I promise not to ever be like that again?
Renji: *shakes his head* Nothing like that.
Yukimura: Then what?! *stands and walks away*
Renji: *sits there for a while before finally getting up and walking until he's a few feet away from Yukimura*
Yukimura: *shoulders and back are tense* Well? Can't you bear to even touch me now?
Renji: *walks until he's in front of Yukimura, then wraps his arms around him* It's nothing like that. You do things because you need to - you've always been like that. I'm just... scared, that's all.
Yukimura: *remains tense* Scared of what? That you'll catch something? I hardly had sex with them because I needed to.
Renji: *shakes his head* That I'm not enough. Won't be enough.
Yukimura: How could you not be enough? I'm exactly what Envy calls me, or I was - a slut. I'm the one who should be scared. Why would you want something that many others have? *disgusted look*
Renji: It's an irrational fear. *pulls away slightly* You can't make me change my mind so easily.
Yukimura: I hardly want to change your mind. I love you. But I can't change what I did or take it back - even if I wish you were my first, like I was yours.
Renji: What you did then was when we were friends. I have no right to be angry about it.
Yukimura: Have you noticed, Renji, that I often say I love you or talk about it, but only half the time you respond but with I love your too?
Renji: *mouth opens, then closes* I don't do that on purpose. I do love you.
Yukimura: Hm. It doesn't matter. *sighs and rubs his face*
Renji: It does. *grabs Yukimura's hand* Do you need me to say it more often?
Yukimura: No, I don't need you to. *squeezes his hand*
Renji: Do you want me to?
Yukimura: I want only you to say it when you feel it.
Renji: I can't say it 24/7.
Yukimura: *looks up at Renji, smiles faintly* Are we okay then?
Renji: *nods, then kisses Yukimura softly*
Yukimura: *touches Renji’s face carefully as he kisses him back just as softly*
Renji: *pulls away and steps back, tugging on Yukimura's hand* Come on, let's go home. It'll start raining soon.
Yukimura: *holds onto Renji's hand tightly with both hands and nods* Okay. Don't want to get wet.
Renji: *walks back to Yukimura's house, hands swinging between them, and does dorky stuff like whisper 'I love you' into Yukimura's ear every 4.5 steps*