how dare i let myself become vulnerable?

how dare i let my guard down? For anyone. Or any emotion.

i am of steel. i am of stone. i am immobile. i am unbreakable. for all but you.

made my mom feel bad for spending $500 on another set of new couches on Thanksgiving. she got upset ( Read more... )

i once wrote something along the lines of "if you keep holding on, we'll all have a chance ( Read more... )

oh my godddddd.

ive been sick for over a week now. i just want to get better so i can go back to work and school =[

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Alone Is so familiar these days ( Read more... )

lately i haven't been one to just bitch about nonsensical bullshit that is never permanent, especially on LiveJournal. but i go to band practice today with my laptop and it dies which was no surprise considering i didnt plug in the charger. i get home and i try to turn it on and that shit just does NOT start ( Read more... )

diddley Doo Doo (12:17:36 AM): before john ever made us breakfast, did you get the impression from what he talked about that his breakfasts were filled with bacon and sausage and orange juice and like a fruit salad
Prince Dynomite (12:17:46 AM): yeah
Prince Dynomite (12:18:06 AM): like
Prince Dynomite (12:18:28 AM): a long ass medieval style table
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today is such a bad day. such a bad day. between people  being assholes, me fucking normal, easy things up, as i always do, and now finding out i wont graduate Middlesex until spring, i dont know what to do. i'm literally shocked.

i am so apathetic to everyone and everything now. i dont want to do this anymore.

i really dont see a point

at all.

i have a list of questions i am just going to rattle off:

1) what kind of world do we live in where simply looking backwards in your tagged facebook pictures gets you so incredibly sad?
2) why am i up at 6:30?
3) why does middlesex county college suck so much dick?
4) really though, why does facebook do this?
5) why, and maybe it's not just me but, do i ( Read more... )