betrayal

[davanshwik]

my heart is breaking,
my light erased,
i wish that i could get away from this place.

why do i stay?why does it feel like im watching myself slit my own throat, and not even try to stop myself?why would i rather have this then absolution?why am i still here?why do i stay?

daVan len: i wonder if hes fucking guys or girls

Comments

[votreamour]

why didn't you call today, you said we'd hang out? i hope you're alright. if you need someone to talk to, you know the number.
love,
naomi

tried so hard to find the right way-

[davanshwik]

i am terribly sorry i did not call so we could hang out, i laid in bed all day feeling sorry for myself, only to find out an hour later that i was, this is not the right word, (so please do not take offense anyone) misconceived, misled, misconstrued, mis discovered(if you will), all of these and more, for none are truly the exact word i am looking for.

perhaps you could say that none of my fearing and grieving were for any true and just cause. so in other words, i was wrong; just surmise accumulate, or so they say.

we all should do something for my birthday, and at least try and make the best of an already ominously disappointing day.

love always-me