i need the patch now!
or nicotine gum or something....

ugh... need ben to come back, having boy withdrawls.aakkkk! sputter... babble...
hes so sweet and hot, and nice.mmmm, i dont care if he dosent want anything serious, i just wanna kiss him and squeeze his hot ass [muscles]. heehee.
i cant wait till thursday or friday!

kelsey we might have to make out...

ugh....ack.. blah... need boy...now

so i have a plan: to quit smoking soon. real soon. maybe i should hang out with people who dont smoke, or at least less. oh well, alot of people i know are also quiting soon ( Read more... )

KELSEYKELSEYKELSEYKELSEY

Opheliaz Dream: i want a boy now
Opheliaz Dream: !!!!!!!!!!
Opheliaz Dream: akkk
Opheliaz Dream: i just wann a make out and feel a boys pecs and ass
Opheliaz Dream: is that so hard?
Opheliaz Dream: you hate me dont you
Auto response from (kelsey): brb

KELSEY KELSEY KELSEY
find me a boy to hang out with
NOW
that is all

THIS IS TRUE,
AND ALL THAT I HAVE FOUND
WILL I STAY OR BE BETTER OFF TO GET AWAY

I'M SCARED THAT I WONT FIND A THING
AND AFRAID, WILL I TURN OUT TO BE ALONE?
BUT I...
HAVE TO LEARN, HAVE TO TRY, HAVE TO TRUST , I HAVE TO CRY
HAVE TO SEE, HAVE TO KNOW, THAT I CAN BE MYSELF

what is this feeling? what is wrong with me? i met a cute boy, so what if one of my best friends hates him? so what if hes going away to chicago for a week tomorrow night? i hope i see him. so what? i think thats the problem, i dont think i can feel anymore, i dont feel like caring anymore, but in spite of that, i am still doing it ( Read more... )

kelsey's back; sorry for breaking off the conversation, it was getting really hard to type.

there like little kids; i have to make sure ben and danny avoid each other, its so lame, but whatever, they should just get along. be nice danny, i really like this boy.

actually let him see my house; really surprised about that one. finally realized that ( Read more... )

8 July: broke up with josh because it was the best thing for him(did i say him? I meant us)

9 July: sworn off relationships

10-15 July: feelin pretty bad, still convinced im through with relationships

16 July: went to a gay party, two of my ex's were there including my most recent one. resolve strengthened.

17 July: got drunk and went to ( Read more... )

Do you really have everything you want?
You could never give somethin' you ain't got
You can’t run away from yourself

( if you really need to know )

as time moves on i have come to realize i dont need someone there. men only complicate things, make goals harder to reach.
make you feel inferior. make you someone who you dont want to be.
well, i dont need that. i dont need you. i will be fine ill be alright, ill be okay, as long as i dont have you ( Read more... )