I think I give up. 
I was bold, for a time, and mighty forces came to my aid. 
But I just...don't care, anymore. 
I will work.
I will eat.
I will sleep.
I will work.
I will eat.
I will sleep.
I could have been great.
Now I'm just another drone.

I'm not going to be hateful, I'm going to be positive. POSITIVE! Fucking god-damn you positive. I'm smiling. SEE MY SMILE!!??!! Look at me SMILE!!!
It's radiant, goddamnit!!

It's a beautiful day. I love everything. 

the pieces are all over the floor. 
they don't go together.
the picture doesn't make sense. 

Do you feel like a fraud? I know you do. New haircut. New shirt. Watching Japanese pop music videos on my computer. I am looking for enlightenment. I thought the language barrier might free me from literal interpretation, from Western bias. It did not, I only felt less connected. I am not in on the secret. If there is something out there on the ( Read more... )